Losing It

Okay, I know it's been like...eternity since I've updated, but as you can see this is a pretty long chapter. It's taken me a while to write it, but I had to build up to the moment... ;) I spent a long time writing and rewriting this chapter so I hope I don't disappoint and I REALLY hope it is worth the long wait. I have at least two more chapters planned after this one...and as long as I get positive feedback...I plan to have some more smuttiness.^_^ I hope you enjoy...

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Buffy’s POV

I can feel the sun beating down on my skin.

I smile to myself and stretch my arms above my head. I let out a low moan and open my eyes to take in my surroundings.

Faith’s room. My baby’s room.

I swear I could wake up to this for the rest of my life.

The sun catches the diamond on my hand and it sparkles in my eyes, and I am suddenly reminded that I will. For the rest of my life, I will wake up in her bed with her by my si…

I suddenly realize that Faith isn’t by my side or even in the same room for that matter.

I sit up in bed and look around groggily. The clothes that Faith was wearing yesterday are lying on the floor and I can still smell the fragrance of shampoo and soap. She must have already gotten up and taken a shower. Was I really out that long?

I look over at the clock and see that it’s already 10 AM. Even on a Saturday morning, that’s late for me.

I start to push the sheet back off my legs when I hear the door slowly creep open. The smell of bacon, eggs, toast and apple juice suddenly overwhelms my senses and my tummy growls.

“Whoa. Sounds like someone might be a little hungry.”

I watch in awe as Faith steps into the room balancing a breakfast tray in each hand. She looks over and meets my eyes with a warm smile.

My heart swells.

I smile at her as I push myself back against the headboard so she can place the tray over my lap. She smiles at me and leans in for a kiss. I can smell the shampoo in her still damp hair and the cologne that she wears as she leans over me to claim her kiss.

I inhale her scent de bef before she pulls away and walks around to take her place next to me in the bed. I watch her every movement.

She’s wearing the leather pants that I gave her for Christmas last year and the white button up shirt that she got when we went to Beverly Hills.

That thing cost me 400 bucks, but it’s worth every penny to see it against her skin, bringing out the dark hue of her eyes.

My baby is so beautiful.

“Baby, you are so beautiful,” I say as she sits next to me.

She looks over and gives me a bemused glance as she pulls the tray onto her lap. She pulls her Docs up onto the bed and crosses her ankles. She leans her head back against the headboard and shoves a whole piece of toast in her mouth. She looks over at me and grins.

“Ugh, Faith. That’s disgusting,” I laugh.

I give her a little shove on her shoulder as I giggle to myself. Leave it to Faith to weasel her way out of a compliment with gross behavior. For some reason, she can’t seem to take them.

I’ll have to fix that, but for now, I want to enjoy breakfast in bed with my fiancée.

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“That was really good baby.”

I say to her as I push the tray from my lap.

Faith smiles over at me and gulps down the last of her juice before reaching over and taking the tray from beside me. She places it on the table beside the bed and turns back to face me.

She reaches out and takes my hand. She looks down at our hands as she runs her thumb over the back of my wrist and the top of my hand.

“Buffy I…”

She trails off and lets out a deep breath. I smile and place my hand on her thigh. I see her flinch and I can’t help but enjoy it. Just a little.

She lets out another deep breath and then she pulls her eyes up to mine.

“Buffy, I wanna take you out today. I want it to be a day for just you and me. No interruptions from life long friends, no marriage proposals, no talks in a grave yard…nothing. Just you and me, together. Whadda ya say?”

Well, what can I say?

I smile and nod my head.

“Yes.”

I see her get that familiar glint in her eye. The one where she’s planning something really big, but doesn’t want me to know. Then I see a huge grin spread across her face.

“Perfect.”

She jumps up off the bed and walks over to her closet. She rummages around on the top shelf for a moment and then I watch her as she makes her way back over to me. She places a pile of clothes in my lap and pulls a new pair of shoes from under the bed. I look down at the clothes and then look back up at her with a raised eyebrow.

She grins.

“Consider it an early Christmas present.”

She leans in and givesone one of her heart stopping kisses that only lasts for like a second, but is enough to make my toes tingle and my hair stand on end.

When she pulls away she nods her head towards the bathroom.

“Go get a shower and meet me downstairs in half an hour. I promise you baby, today will be a day that you’ll never forget.”

I can’t believe how much I love her. She’s left me speechless and all I can do is nod and pull myself off the bed.

I can feel her eyes on my ass as I make my way to the shower in her room and I do nothing to hinder her view. It makes me feel really good to know that she wants me so much. Makes me feel…beautiful.

I close the door to the bathroom with a light click and fall back against it with a sigh.

I wait until I hear her soft footsteps retreating and then her bedroom door closes softly behind her. I look down at the clothes in my hand and I can tell that whatever Faith has planned for today, it’s gonna be big and she wants me to look my best.

It’s a blue silk button up shirt that is slightly see through, a pair of black tailored jeans, and black lace lingerie. There is also a belt with the letter “B” emblazoned in silver on the buckle. To top it off, I have the black heeled boots waiting for me beside the bed.

That makes me smile. My baby always wants me to have the best.

I feel my heart pounding deeply in my chest and I can feel my throat begin to get dry. Faith is *really* starting to make it hard for me to hold out…but…after today…

I’m not so sure I’ll want to.

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Faith’s POV

I don’t know how much longer I can wait.

No, I ain’t talkin’ about the fuc…making love thing either. I’m talking about how much longer I can stay down here, thinking of B up in my shower…naked…her body covered in warm soap…the water dripping down between her breasts…dropping from her nipples…over her belly button…down to her pus…

Oh God!

I probably shouldn’t have thought about that. It’s not really helping the whole “waiting patiently” thing. I can’t even tell you HOW much I want to just walk right up those stairs, burst into my bathroom, rip off all my clothes, throw Buffy against the shower door and make her scream so loud she’ll lose her voice for a month…

Damn. Really not helping here.

I need something to occupy my mind…and my hands. I look around the room and I spot the perfect thing.

My Playstation 2. Buffy bought it for me on my birthday last year. My baby knows what I like, and she likes to sit behind me on the floor and run her fingers through my hair as I sit and play it for hours. Its another one of those quiet times we spend together. When there are just no words.

I love it.

I get up off the couch and head over to the entertainment center. I pull the game out of the cabinet and stick in my other birthday present, Madden 2004.

My baby *really* knows what I like.

I place the game in and turn on the power. I pull the controller out and take my place on the floor in front of the couch.

As I start to play the game, I realize it’s not the same with out my baby here. I miss the feel of her soft fingers running through my hair and the way she would laugh softly when I’d curse at the screen.

Damn. I must really have it bad. I can’t even play a video game without wishing she were here. I guess its just my luck I’m gonna have her for the rest of my life…and hers.

“Baby?”

The sound of her voice makes me smile. I turn my head and the controller drops from my hands and makes a loud thud against the floor between my legs.

She’s beautiful.

She has her hair pulled back with a few strands framing her face. The blue silk shirt fits her every curve and there is a slight view of the black lace underneath. The black tailored jeans hug her hips and dip in the front just right. The black heeled boots give her a slight height advantage and the soft smile on her face makes her look just like an Angel.

My Angel.

“Bu…wha…you ah…loo-look…wow.”

I’m speechless. Her beauty has left me without words and the soft, yet seductive smile on her face is making me warm…*all* over.

I stumble over myself as I try to pull myself to my feet. My hands get tangled under my legs and my legs get tangled in the cord to my controller. I don’t think I need to describe what happens next.

Lets just say I have all the grace of a drunken sorority girl trying to find her top at a frat party.

NOT PRETTY.

I stumble over myself and fall flat on my face right in front of Buffy’s feet. I look up at her with an embarrassed grin. The blood suddenly rushes from south to north and my whole face turns red.

But Buffy just smiles and shakes her head as she drops to her knees and meets my eyes. She smiles at me and reaches out to touch my cheek. Any feeling of embarrassment that I feel suddenly floods from my body and is replaced by the utter feeling of contentment I get every time she touches me.

Yeah, THAT sappy shit again.

“Baby…you look…you look…wow.”

Buffy smiles at me and runs her fingers through my hair.

“Yeah, you said that already.”

I give her a goofy grin and push myself to my feet. I let out a deep breath and run my fingers through my hair, willing my senses under control. Buffy slowly rises to her feet and smiles that sultry smile again.

I feel that familiar urge to shove her against the wall and make her scream out my name…but instead, I just smile right back and reach over to grab the black jacket I bought for her off the chair.

I hold it out and raise my eyebrow in question.

“Shall we?”

She smiles at me and places her arms in the jacket. I push it up over her shoulders and I smell the familiar scent of vanilla and honeysuckle. I close my eyes and will myself to gain control once again.

I walk over and grab my keys from beside the door. I extend my arm out to her with a smile. She walks over and places her arm through mine with a gentle smile.

I lead her out the door and into my Mustang Convertible, and yeah, I’m still payin’ out of my ass for it.

I put the keys in the ignition and turn my head to look as I back out. I feel Buffy’s hand slowly creep onto my thigh and I smile to myself as I place the sunshades over my eyes.

This is gonna be the best fuckin’ day of my life.

And I mean that in *every* sense of the word.

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I started the day with a trip to the San Diego Zoo.

It was something really simple and childlike, right up Buffy’s alley. Not that she is childlike in *any* sense of the word, cause “Hello hot as hell with the brains to boot”. I just mean it’s the simple kind of pleasure that Buffy enjoys so much.

Oh, if she only knew…

I bought Buffy a huge stuffed bear with a huge red heart in it’s hands that said ‘I LOVE YOU BEARY MUCH’. It made her smile and it earned me a soft kiss. The kind that makes my toes tingle and my heart to beat in my ears.

After our trip to the zoo, I decided to take Buffy on a walk along the shoreline. We had our picture made in one of those cheesy picture booths that cost five dollars for a Polaroid of her in my lap with her head next to mine, soft smiles on our faces and the glint of true love in our eyes.

Damn. I hope I can remember that one. Buffy’ll fall all over herself.

After we had our walk and took our picture, which Buffy placed in the bear’s arms beside the heart, we went to a secluded part of the beach and I surprised her with a candlelit picnic, which we are currently enjoying.

“What did I ever do to deserve you?”

I look over at Buffy over the rim of my soda can. I raise my eyebrow and nearly choke as the coke slides down my throat.

“Wha…what?”

Buffy smiles at me and reaches out with her hand to wipe away the dribble of coke that landed on my chin.

“You heard me. I said, What did I ever do to have someone that loves me as much as you do?”

I put the coke can down on the blanket and turn to face her completely.

“Are you serious Baby? You’re asking what *you* ever did to deserve *me*? I think the question should be what did *I* ever do to deserve *you*…cause sometimes…I don’t think that I do.”

I drop my head to my lap and start playing with my fingernails. I hear her let out a little sigh and then I feel her hand under my chin, pulling my eyes up to hers.

She smiles at me and nods her head.

“Yes, you do. You do deserve me, cause we deserve each other. Faith, don’t you know that there is not another living, breathing person on this planet that I could ever want, need, desire, or even imagine myself with besides you? I couldn’t be with anyone else because I *can’t* be with anyone else. It is physically impossible. I can’t think of anyone else I’d rather…”

She trails off as she looks deep into my eyes. She runs her eyes over my body and then back to my eyes. She scoots closer to me with that seductive smile set in place. She places her hands on my shoulders and pushes back on them gently. I watch her with rapt attention, gazing deep into her sea of green as she pushes me back and places one leg and then the other over mine.

She eases herself down onto my lap and straddles my thighs with hers. I swallow hard and feel the arousal shoot straight down to my groin. She licks her lips and leans in to kiss me just below my left ear. I close my eyes and let out a groan.

Cause it feels fuckin’ amazing.

The feel of her soft lips against my hot skin. Her hands running subtly over my shoulders. The heat from her groin baring down into mine. The feel of her strong thighs holding mine between her legs, and her soft tongue running over the shell of my ear.

I turn my head with a groan and latch my lips onto the base of her neck. She lets out a moan of her own and throws her head back. I take the opportunity to wrap my arms around her waist and pull her into me. I continue to lick and suck at the tender skin on her neck as her moans start to intensify.

God…she makes me so…horny. I know thatwe dwe don’t stop now…we won’t.

I pull away from her and smile to myself at her light whimper. I start to pull myself from under her and she grabs onto my biceps with the force of a grip I didn’t know that she possessed.

I stop with my hands behind me and I look into her eyes with a questioning stare. She looks deep into my eyes and smiles at me just like the first time that I told her I love her.

“Faith…don’t…don’t stop. I don’t want you to…stop. I want…I want you to…”

She trials off and lets out a sigh. She looks down and then back into my eyes. She leans in and brings her lips to mine.

“Faith…make love to me.”

She whispers into my lips before kissing me deeply yet tenderly.

I feel my whole world collapse into a point, and that point is currently stradg myg my lap asking me to do the one thing to her that I’ve always wanted.

She wants me to make love to her, and I don’t think there is anything else that I’d rather do in this very moment.

What the fuck am I saying? OF COURSE there isn’t anything else I’d rather do. This is *the* fucking moment I’ve been waiting for since…forever.

But it suddenly dawns on me that we are on a blanket in the middle of the beach out in the open for anyone to see. Granted it is dark and there aren’t any people as far as I can see, but I’m not too sure how B feels about her first time being on a pile of sand with the entire cast of The Little Mermaid looking on.

“Ah, B?”

I barely manage to pull out of the kiss. She slowly opens her eyes and I can see that they are glazed over. They are a much deeper green than I’ve ever known them to be and her pupils are dilated dramatically.

I swallow hard and suddenly, I know the answer to my own question, but I better check anyway. Just to be sure.

“Baby, are you sure? I mean…are you sure about it…here, and…now?”

Buffy takes in a few deep breaths to regain her composure. She smiles at me softly and runs her fingers through my hair.

“You are so considerate, baby.”

Her fingers tighten in my hair and she pulls me to her forcefully. My eyes widen and my heart rate speeds up at her suddenly bold movement.

“But you can be considerate later. Right now…”

She leans in and limy emy ear before whispering into it seductively.

“…I want you to make me scream.”

Fuck. Fuck…fuck.

I think I just came. Right here in my jeans. On this blanket in the middle of a pile of sand, I just creamed my jeans and I didn’t even touch myself…or her.

Yet.

Well, it’s like I always say…I never can tell my Baby no…

I slide my hands up her sides and bring them to a rest on the top button of her blouse. I look up into her eyes and she answers my questioning gaze with a light nod and smile.

I take in a deep breath and it suddenly dawns on me that I am about to have everything that I’ve ever wanted. To love and to be loved in the best way, and there is no one else alive that I’d rather do it with than my baby.

I start to slowly pop open the buttons one by one on her blouse. As I work my way down, the material begins to fall away, exposing more of her soft and perfect skin to my hungry eyes.

I am so enraptured with her luscious skin and what I am doing that it takes me a minute to realize there is a light tugging sensation coming from the waistband of my pants. I somehow manage to tear my eyes away from her skin to look down at my lap.

That’s when I see Buffy’s hands working to undo my belt. The sight sends a shock of arousal from the top of my head straight down to the ends of my toes.

She gets my belt buckle open and her fingers search for the button on my leathers. I hear the sound of it popping open register in my ears and then I feel the tugging sensation once again as she slowly drags my zipper down. When my pants are completely open and the only thing between my pussy and B’s hand is the tip of my shirt and the lace of my underwear, I look up into her eyes and try to convey to her what she is doing to me in this very moment.

She is smiling down at me and I think she knows.

She lifts her hands and places them over my hands that are currently resting on the waistband of her jeans. I had gotten to the last button of her shirt and it is completely open now, exposing her half-naked torso to the cool night air and to my appreciative stare. I can feel the goose bumps on her skin rubbing the back of my fingers and it makes me shiver.

Buffy takes my hands in hers and lifts them up to her lips. She kisses the back of each of my hands and then looks deep into my eyes as she lowers them to her breasts.

At the first touch of her perfect mounds, I lose all sense of reality. I let out a deep moan and squeeze the supple flesh in my hands. That in turn makes B let out a moan of her own.

It turns me on beyond anything I’ve ever felt before.

I start to massage and pull at her flesh beneath her bra. Buffy lets out a gasp when I pull at her nipples and then she breathes out my name.

“Faith…”

It makes me moan. To hear her say my name like that, and to see her head thrown back in ecstasy…its almost enough to make me come…but not nearly enough to satisfy my need for her.

I lean into her and place my lips on her belly button. I swirl my tongue in her navel as I continue my assault on her breasts.

“Faith…”

She weaves her fingers through my hair and holds onto me with all her strength.

“Faith!”

I finally realize she has been trying to get my attention, so I stop all movement and look up at her, awaiting to meet her every wish and desire.

“I want your mouth on me…now.”

Fuckkkk.

I let out a groan and watch through half-lidded eyes as Buffy reaches behind herself and pulls the snaps to her bra open. The black lace falls from her skin and her breasts are completely exposed to my eyes.

They are perfect. Even better than I imagined them to be. They are soft and perfectly round, with smooth skin topped off with the most perfect pink nipples that are currently hardening under my stare. She still has her blue silk shirt on and the contrast of the color against her bare flesh makes her even more beautiful.

But before I can tell her how perfect she looks, I feel her place her hand on the back of my head and the next thing I know her nipple is in my mouth and I can feel it swell into arousal around my tongue.

B lets out a deep moan and so do I.

My instincts kick in and I start to suck on the nipple very softly. I bring my right hand up to cup her breast as I continue to lavish it with my mouth and my tongue. Buffy’s fingers tighten in my hair and she pulls me even closer. I feel her flesh around my mouth and against the skin of my face.

It drives me in-fucking-sane.

I want to feel her around me…someplace more…

What the hell am I saying?

I want to feel her pussy around my fingers. I want to feel it convulsing against my skin as she rides me into ecstasy.

What? I’ve got a lot of tension to release here. What did you expect? Poetry?

Ha. Don’t think so. I’ll save that for *after* the greatest night of my life.

But as for now, I’m gonna make Buffy the happiest, most satisfied woman every to grace the realm of ecstasy.

Just in case you’re wondering, I heard it on a movie once, and I always wanted to say it.

I pull my mouth away from its place on Buffy’s breast and I reach down with my hands to the waistband of her jeans. I start to unbuckle her belt with shaky hands. I swallow back the lump in my throat and look up into Buffy’s eyes. She is gazing down at me with such love and trust that it almost feels like my heart will leap out of my chest.

I can’t even begin to explain what that look means to me.

I start to pull the buckle up and undo the clasp. I hear Buffy take in a few ragged breaths and then her hands come down to rest on my forearms. I look up in fear that she has changed her mind again, but I only meet her soft smile and waiting gaze.

She’s waiting for me. She wants me to do this. After waiting for so long…its finally here. The moment our lives are going to change forever.

I pull her buckle free and work on the button. It pops open with little effort and then I slowly pull down her zipper. When I have it all the way down, I look up at her once again.

Buffy smiles down at me and places her hands behind my head. She starts to lean backwards off my lap and she pulls me down on top of her.

I fall onto her with a light sigh and she lets out one of her own. I gaze down into her eyes and feel my heart get lost in their deep green depths. I lean in and kiss her with all the love and awe I feel inside right now and I hope she knows what this moment means to me.

She laces her fingers through my hair and pulls my body down onto hers. My shirt rises a little and I can feel the soft touch of her belly against mine. We both let out a moan at the contact, but its not enough. For either of us.

Buffy’s hands work their way out of my hair and onto the collar of my shirt. She starts to tug at it and I get what she wants.

I reluctantly raise myself off her a little and start to undo the buttons on my shirt. I stare down into her eyes as I struggle to pull them through the holes. Buffy just smiles up at me and starts to run her hands over the exposed flesh of my stomach that is visible where my leathers are sagging off my hips.

She runs the back of her fingers over my stomach before dragging her fingernails back up over my flesh. It sends a gentle wave of arousal through my whole body.

I finally get to the last button and I pull it from the hole. I pull my shirt back off my shoulders and discard it to the side. Buffy takes in a deep breath and I watch as her eyes trail from mine, over my breasts and to the rapidly flexing muscles of my abdomen.

My breathing has increased considerably and I watch as hers does too. She’s watching the muscles twitch and expand under my skin. Then she lifts her hands and runs her fingers over each one.

Just the touch of her fingers on my skin takes me to Heaven. My flesh burns where she touches me and I feel as though it will consume me from the inside out.

“Buffy…”

I softly whisper her name before lowering myself back onto her body.

I place my arms on either side of her hand and start to run my fingers through her hair lightly. I smile at her and she smiles back.

“Are you sure about this Baby?”

Buffy runs her hands over the muscles in my back. She lets out another moan when she feels them twitch and bend from her touch.

I take in a ragged breath as I feel her hands slowly traveling lower on my back.

I close my eyes at the sensation and the breath turns into a moan when I feel her slip her hands under the waistband of my leathers. Her fingers dig into the muscles of my ass and she pulls my groin roughly against hers.

I open my eyes and look down into hers. She smiles up at me with a glint in her eye.

“What do you think?”

I smile down at her and lean in for a kiss. She leans up to kiss me, but I pull my head back and latch onto her bottom lip. I pull on it before letting it fall back. Before she can react, I shove my tongue in her mouth and she moans into mine.

I start to grind my hips down into hers. She lets out a strangled moan and then sucks in a deep breath.

I grind down harder into her and she breaks away from the kiss to throw her head back with a loud moan.

“Fuck…Faith…”

Oh yeah. NOW she’s feelin’ it…but not enough.

“B?”

Buffy struggles to pull her head back up and look into my eyes. When she does, I can see how large her pupils have become and I know that this time…she wants…no…needs…it just as bad as me.

“Baby…I want to feel all of you.”

I see a brief flash of panic in her eyes. So I lean down and kiss her gently. I runtongtongue over her lips and kiss her jaw. I pull away and look deep into her eyes.

“Don’t be scared Baby. It’s only me.”

I can see her relax from my words. She lets out a little breath and nods with a soft smile.

“I know Baby. That’s what scares me.”

I pull my head back and look down at her a little confused. She lets out a deep breath and smiles kinda sheepishly.

“I just don’t want you to be…to be disappointed. What if I’m not everything you’ve been waiting for? And what if I’m not…good? What if I can’t make you…? And what if…”

I stop her babbling with another soft kiss. I let it linger this time, but its nothing more than soft.

When I pull away I see her eyes flutter open slowly. I smile down at her and she blushes.

“No more ‘What ifs’ Baby. There is no way you can disappoint me. You will be *more* than everything. You’re gonna be incredible, and believe me…I WILL.”

I smile my patented grin and she blushes a deeper shade of red. I run my fingers through her hair.

“Okay?”

She thinks about it for a second and then she smiles.

“Okay.”

I start to reach down to the waistband of her jeans and her hand comes down over mine. I look up at her with a raised eyebrow.

“Just…be gentle. I trust you, and I love you. I just…be gentle. Please?”

I smile down at her as I feel my heart swell again.

“Of course, Baby. I wouldn’t have it…or you…any other way.”

She smiles up at me and removes her hand from mine. She grabs me by the back of my head and pulls my lips to hers. She kisses me deeply and we both moan as I slip my hand down to her stomach. I tug at her jeans and work them down to her knees.

She lets out a giggle through the kiss as I struggle to push them further down. I pull away and mock scowl at her before grinning. I raise my eyebrow wa sma smirk and slowly wiggle down her body. Her back arches slightly when I kiss my way down to her navel.

I swirl my tongue in her belly button as I slide my hands down her thighs to the top of her jeans. I push them all the way to the top of her boots before they get stuck again.

I raise myself off of her and reach down to pull her boots off one by one. I look up at her with a smile when they are both off and discarded. She looks down at me with a smile of her own as she lightly rests her hands on her stomach.

She’s so beautiful. My B. My everything.

“You’re so beautiful Baby.”

Her smile softens and she turns her head slightly.

“So are you Baby. So are you.”

I smile at her as I place my hands on her jeans and pull them from her body. She lets out a deep breath when she is lying before me in nothing but her lace panties and the silk shirt.

I suddenly feel over dressed.

I slowly rise to my feet, never breaking our eye contact.

She watches me intently as I raise my hands to the straps on my bra and slowly lowers them. I reach around to my back and pull the clasp free. Buffy takes in a deep breath when it falls away from my body, exposing my breasts to her gaze. My nipples instantly harden and its not just from the cool breeze I suddenly feel.

I place my right foot to my left one, heel to toe, and step out of it. I repeat the process with the other one before lifting up each foot and pulling off my socks. I swagger a little bit and B chuckles. I just smile at her amused as I place my hands on the waistband of my leathers.

“Wait.”

I stop the movement of my hands at the sound of her voice. I watch as she rises to her feet and steps in front of me. She places her hands over mine and looks deep into my eyes.

“Let me.”

I swallow hard and nod as I drop my hands away.

Buffy places a hand on each side of my pants and pulls them downward. She drops to her knees so she can pull them off my feet. I step out of each leg and she pulls them away.

She slowly trails her eyes up over my thighs to the matching pair of white lace underwear.

Black for her and white for me. Seems kinda backwards, huh?

I just couldn’t resist.

The sudden feel of Buffy’s hands on the tender skin of my thighs jolts me out of my current thoughts. I look down at her and she has her eyes fixed on the lace underwear, or more precisely, what’s under the underwear.

She slowly pulls her eyes up to mine. She swallows hard again.

“Faith? I don’t think I’m gonna know how to…to…do it.”

Damn. Could she be any more perfectly…perfect?

I smile at her as I reach down and pull her up to eye level. I ease the shirt back off her shoulders and it slowly floats to the ground beneath our feet. She lets out a little gasp and I smile softly as I lift her up into my arms. She sighs out softly and smiles at me as we gaze deeply into each other’s eyes.

“Let me show you,” I whisper to her and then slowly lower us back down onto the blanket.

She falls back onto the blanket softly and I cradle her head as she settles in again. I lean down and kiss her tenderly, conveying what this means to me, what *she* means to


Our skin makes perfect contact and we sigh out at the same time. She runs her hands softly over my back and down to my ass. She gives it a light squeeze and I’m starting to wonder if maybe she has a little fixation.

But it suddenly doesn’t matter when I feel her pull my tongue into her mouth and suck on it lightly. She knows what that does to me, and this time is no different.

My nipples harden once again and she lets out a moan as they press down into her flesh. I feel hers harden also and I suddenly want them in my mouth.

I break away from the kiss and trail my tongue down over her jaw, over the hot flesh of her neck to the hollow between her breasts. I nip and lick the tender skin there, causing her to moan loudly.

A cool breeze from the ocean washes over my back and my skin prickles. I’m really starting to feel it now, and so is Buffy. I can feel the damp spot on my stomach where it is pressing into her pussy.

Fuck. It feels sooooo good.

“Fuck Baby. You feel so goo
I
I barely manage to whisper it through my kisses. Buffy only moans her approval as I latch onto her left nipple.

I pull it into my mouth and suck on it gently. I swirl my tongue around it and caress it. It swells and hardens to an impossible peak in my mouth.

B trails her hands up my back and onto my head. She weaves her fingers through my hair and pulls it tighter against her breast.

I let out a deep moan against her breast. The sweet smell of her flesh floods my senses and the soft feel of her skin against my face makes me moan again.
Really loud.

She’s forcing my mouth tighter against her breast and it drives me insane. I try to pull my head back to switch to the other breast and her grip tightens around my head.

Whoa. I guess my Baby knows what she wants and ain’t afraid to show it.

But I use my Slayer strh toh to pull myself out of her grip. I hear her let out a whimper of protest and I smile. She slowly opens her eyes to see why I stopped. I look down at her and try to convey to her how much I love her and that I would never hurt her.

“Baby? You ready?”

I can see that panic flash in her eyes again. I let out a little sigh and caress her breast softly with my hand.

“I won’t hurt you. I swear. I’d never hurt you. I would die first.”

She thinks it over for a fraction of a second and then nods with a soft smile. She blinks her eyes slowly and runs her tongue over her bottom lip.

She looks so sexy lying underneath me and I suddenly have the overwhelming urge to be on her…in her…with her.

I wait for any sign that she isn’t ready and when I don’t receive one…I slowly slide my body down the length of hers. I trail soft kisses down her flesh, stopping to swirl my tongue in her navel cause I know how much she loves it.

She lets out another moan and places one hand on my hand while the other one seeks out my left hand. I feel her slide her fingers through mine and she entwines them firmly together.

My Baby wants some intimate contact, and if that’s what she wants…that’s what she’s gonna get.

I give her hand a little squeeze to let her know I’m still here with her. She lets out a little sigh and I know that she’s ready, completely.

I work my way down to the hem of her lace panties. I stop for a moment to admire the contrast of the black lingerie against her fair skin.

She really is beautiful.

I place a light kiss on her stomach where the waistband meets her flesh. I feel the muscles ripple and jump under my lips. It makes me moan and my need for her increases.

I slide my tongue down over the crotch of her panties until I reach the center. I suck lightly on the fabric there and I suddenly feel it rise beneath my lips. I suck lightly on her clit through the lace and I can feel her thighs tremble against my shoulders.

She lets out a deep, throaty moan and I slide my right hand up and over her thigh. I place her left thigh over my shoulder and she catches on, placing her other one over my left shoulder.

I give her hand another gentle squeeze before slowly trailing my other hand up over her thigh to the waistband of her panties. I take in a deep breath and suck in her scent as I slide the panties down and over her thighs.

I break the contact with our flesh just long enough to pull her panties over her knees and from her body.

I can’t fucking breathe.

I’m looking down at her pussy for the first time…and it takes my breath away.

It’s so…perfect. She has it trimmed just right and I always wondered…but B is definitely a natural blonde.

It’s really wet too. I can see her essence just dripping out. It’s seeping from her like honey from a B hive. Yeah, I know what I said, and I can’t wait to taste just how sweet she really is.

I lower myself down to her slowly. My mouth starts to water and my throat acin ain anticipation of what is about to come.

When my lips come into contact with hers for the first time, I lose what little grip I had left on reality.

Her clit is hard a swollen and I can feel it throbbing against my lips. Her pussy is so wet, it floods into my mouth and I drink it down greedily.

I run my tongue up her slit and capture her essence on my tongue. I want to savor it. I want to permanently burn it into my taste buds.

I swirl my tongue around her clit and she lets out a moan.

“Oh Faith…Baby…your tongue feels so…good.”

Her thighs tremor against my shoulders and she clamps her fingers down on my scalp.

I pull her clit into my mouth and suck. Hard.

Buffy’s hips fly up off the blanket and she starts to ride my mouth. I reach up and gently force her hips back down to the blanket.

“Fucckk…Faith….”

I pull my mouth away from her pussy and look up at her. I can see the fiheenheen of sweat all over her body and it makes her flesh shine in the moonlight.

After a few moments of her realizing I’ve stopped, she opens her eyes and looks down at me with a questioning glare.

“Baby…I’m gonna put myself inside of you now. Is that okay?”

She swallows hard and I can hear her heart beat speed up in her chest dramatically.

“Umm…is it gonna…hurt?”

I nod my head lightly. I remember my first time, but it only hurt for a minute or two…then it was…

Fuck. What am I saying?

I was fucked up back then and I don’t want to ruin this for us.

Way to go Faith. You stupid fucker.

“Faith?”

I’m once again pulled out of my thoughts by the sound of B’s voice.

“Yeah Baby?”

She looks down at me and swallows.

“I said…”

I nod again.

“Yeah Baby. Its gonna hurt, but only for a minute. I told you, I won’t hurt you. Not for anything in this world, and if it hurts you too much, just say the word and I’ll stop.”

She ss ans and runs her fingers through my hair.

“Okay Baby. Do it. I want you inside of me.”

I close my eyes for a moment and let her words sink in.

God. If she only knew what she does to me with just her words.

I pull myself back on top of her so I can gaze into her eyes. She looks up at me with complete love and trust. Her eyes shine up at me from the moonlight and I feel as though in this moment, we are one.

I place my left arm around her head and cradle it softly. I slide my body against hers gently and I place my legs between hers, entwining our feet.

She lets out a little ragged breath and I can feel her heart beating rapidly against my chest.

I gaze down into her eyes and try to convey the love and trust I have for her. I want her to feel that I won’t hurt her and that this moment means more to me than any other in my life.

“You ready Baby?”

She lets out another little breath and nods her head with a smile. I return the smile and slowly lower myd tod to kiss her gently, but passionately.

I start to slowly trail my right hand down her chest, over her breasts, past her rib cage, over her belly button until I reach the apex of her legs.

I rub her there gently, dipping my finger between her lips before pulling it out to rub her softly again.

Buffy lets out a series of light moans and gasps as I caress her softly. I pull her clit between my thumb and forefinger and massage it tenderly. She breaks away from the kiss to suck in a deep breath. Her eyes close and she leans her head back.

I rub and massage her for a few more minutes. I want her to be so wet, I’ll just slide right in.

I lean down and kiss her earlobe before pulling it between my teeth and nibbling softly.

“You wet enough Baby?”

I kiss the side of her neck just below her ear and continue a soft trail all the way down. Her fingers clamp down on the muscles in my ass and she pulls me closer. It makes me groan.

She’s ready.

“Baby…open your eyes.”

I want her to look at me for this.

It takes her a second, but her eyes eventually flutter open. She looks up at me and I look down at her.

“I love you Buffy. With all my heart…for the rest of my life.”

She gets a tender smile on her face.

“Me too.”

I smile back at her and raise my hand to the top of her pussy. She feels the adjustment and her muscles tense. I rub her tenderly, letting her know I’ll be gentle. I feel her relax under my touch, and I know it’s finally time to be one with her.

I slowly move my hand over her mound, getting closer to her awaiting opening. I slowly slide my finger through her slit and into her hole. We both moan out at the contact. She is so wet for me, it makes me wetter.

I push my finger in a little further and I feel it brpastpast the first ring of muscle. Buffy’s eyes squint in slight pain.

“You…you okay…baby?”

B nods her head and closes her eyes. She swallows hard and grips onto my bicep tightly.

I push my finger in a little further and I feel her stretching to accommodate me. Buffy takes in a deep breath and it pulls me into her deeper.

I let out a low moan and bury my face in her neck.

I start to pull my finger out…and then slide it back in. B lets out a little whimper of pain, and then it turns to a moan of pleasure. She turns her head to the side and latches onto my neck with her mouth.

She sucks hard on my flesh and I can feel shocks of arousal shoot through my body. I’m so wet for her. I wish she’d touch me.

“Buff…Buffy…”

She doesn’t know what she’s doing to me.

Buffy lets go of her hold on my neck and her back arches up off the blanket. She lets out a low moan of my name.

“Faith…Faith…Faith…”

It drives me wild. To hear her say my name like that…

“I n-need…mo…more…”

Fuck…

I take my finger out and add another before sliding it slowly back in. Her grip on my bicep gets even tighter and she starts to tremble.

I speed up my pace working myself in and out of her faster. Her hips fly up off the blanket and she starts to ride my hand. I capture her lips with mine and kiss her hungrily. I can feel her starting to spasm around my fingers.

She’s gonna come. Hard.

I break the kiss and look down at her beautiful face as she starts to come around my fingers.

“Op…open your e…eyes Baby.”

I want to see those beautiful greens in her moment of ecstasy.

Buffy’s eyes slowly flutter open and she looks up at me through her short, rapid breaths.

I look down at her and smile; my own breathing slightly increased. I can feel it starting to build inside of me. The tension in my belly is mounting and she hasn’t even touched me.

I guess that’s what it means to make love.

We look deeply into each other’s eyes and I feel it. My orgasm is ripping through every muscle in my body, bringing me to the heights of ecstasy.

Buffy throws her head back and lets out a scream. I can feel her pussy convulsing around my fingers rapidly. She’s coming so hard, it’s dripping down my wrist onto my forearm.

I keep pumping her slowly, drawing out her orgasm. It only heightens my own.

In this moment, we are


I finally feel her stop convulsing and she lets out a deep breath as she falls back against the blanket. The last tremor gently leaves both of our bodies and I collapse on top of her, both of us breathing heavily.

I start to pull my fingers out of her, and she grabs my wrist. I look down into her eyes and I know without words what she wants.

She wants me to stay inside of her. She wants to be connected for just a little longer.

And its like I always say…I never can tell my Baby no.

I drop my head to her chest and she entwines her fingers in my hair. She takes in another few deep breaths to regain control over her body. I feel her body jerk lightly with a few after tremors and then she lets out a deep, slow breath.

I feel her kiss the top of my head gently and she pulls me close to her. I listen to the sound of her heart beating against my ear and my heart adapts to the pace.

We are just lying here, being with each other. Loving each other.

I have finally found the other half of my soul…and I’m never letting go.

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