Found

Without breaking the kiss, Buffy began to unbutton the front of Giles shirt, and then ran her hands up and down his chest, feeling the hairs on his chest curl in her fingers. She had never felt chest hair before, and it excited her. She ran her fingers over his hardening nipples, and he moaned and arched up into her. His hand cupped her behind and he pushed her onto him. She groaned into his mouth, and then pulled away from his mouth so that she could kiss his chest and nipples. She didn’t know a man’s nipples could react like that, hardening as she circled her tongue around one, and then the other.

“Buffy…” Giles groaned. He ran his fingers through her hair, and up and down her back, under her t-shirt. He felt for the clasp of her bra and unlatched it. Buffy then sort of sat up so that Giles could remove her top and bra. He looked at her in the moonlight. “You are so beautiful.” He cupped each breast in his hands. “Like alabaster, yet so soft and warm.” He circled her nipples now with his thumbs, watching her face, showing his love and desire in his eyes, which were mirrored in her own.

* * *

Deidra sat on the sofa in the little apartment and heard Spike laughing in the store over something Allison had said. It was obvious to all that those two were smitten with each other. If ever “love at first sight” was possible, it was happening in that outer room, Deidra thought. She was happy for them. She knew she should quit feeling sorry for herself and focus, but she just couldn’t shake the despair inside. Here she was, all alone. Even Allison had someone now. Giles was somewhere with Buffy. The adorable Xander was together with Anya, although that seemed an odd coupling. She should have invited Willow out to ice cream. The two of them could drown themselves in each other’s company.

She decided to shake off the despair and do something constructive. She was feeling way too keyed up to sleep, so after going through the suitcases and putting everything away, she threw on a pair of sweat pants and a t-shirt. She had decided to putt put punching bag in the training room to work. Every time she’d smack the bag, she’d pretend it was Travers’ face!

The laughter from the other room kept bubbling up to her ears, and she couldn’t seem to drown it out. She noticed a radio plugged into the wall, and after careful inspection turned on the CD player. Xander must have been listening to some music as he worked in the afternoon.

Deidra continued to hit the bag, jabbing to the beat of the music. And then the song came on. At first when she heard it, she stopped hitting the bag. She was glued to the spot. When it was over, she went back over to the player and hit the rewind button and listened to it again. Then she took out the CD and read who the singer was. It was something she couldn’t really pronounce. “Evanescence.” The third time she listened to the song the tears were flowing freely, and she had every word memorized. It was as if she had written the song herself.


I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase


when you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating life
now I’m bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

The song had just came to an end for the fourth time when something or someone hit her over the head, and she faded into darkness.


TBC