Crimson Regret
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-Buffy the Vampire Slayer › FemmeSlash - Female/Female › Buffy/Faith
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
19
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10,101
Reviews:
70
Recommended:
2
Currently Reading:
2
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Chapter 15
(((Woohoo, in a writing mood.
AbstractRainbow: Yes, there is a video for “Everybodys Fool.” Go to http://search.launch.yahoo.com/search/lsearch/video?p=evanescence . Its there. It’s an awesome video and Amy Lee looks SO HOT! *dies* )))
[ -- Chapter 15 -- ]
“But Buffy you aren’t being fair!” Dawn wined.
“Dawn you aren’t going out, not with Glory looking for you,” Buffy said while washing the dishes.
“But she doesn’t know its me!”
“Doesn’t matter.”
“Buffy, god, its just over Janice’s house! One night, one sleep over. Its not going to kill me!” Dawn stomped her foot to try and get her sisters attention away from the dirty dishes and on to herself, it wasn’t working and I looked on, amused.
“End of discussion.”
“Arrgg!!” Dawn yelled and ran up the stairs loudly and slammed her door for effect.
I giggled.
Buffy turned around, “What?”
“Nothing. Just Dawn’s spat was cute. Never been around the whole family thing much,” I say as I shoveled down the rest of my pancakes.
Everyone already finished before me and Buffy was washing their dishes, but I eat like a cow and was on my fourth helping.
I never forgot what B said to me that day, it was burned into my head, exact words and all. It gave me hope that maybe one day we’d be together. But I knew to get there Buffy would have to forgive herself for what she did, or at least come to terms with it, and I know that wont be for awhile. Or maybe I could help her get through it, it was me after all and I’ve gone through a whole bunch of shit to know what its like. I don’t think B would want me too though, she’s the kind of person who wants to fix things by herself. I used to do that too, still do sometimes. Guess no one fully changes.
I wish I could help her, if I could make her life perfect, make her completely happy. But I don’t have a clue how. I’ve stuck to making her smiles, and I’ve been doing a pretty good job at that. There’s still sadness behind it though, but its getting less. Its been three days since she said that and I’m slowly making progress. I made breakfast and it was ready right when she came down. The smile on her face made it all worth it. She insisted on cleaning up, mostly because I wasn’t finished eating. My bad.
“I’m sorry you had such a bad childhood, Faith.” Buffy said when she cleaned her last dish and turned around.
“Its no big,” I say, shrugging it off.
“It is though. You were deprived of the advantages of being a kid,” she sat down on the chair.
“Like what?” I look at her skeptically. *What could be so great?*
She perked up, “Oh! I have an idea!” I looked at her intently and she went on, “I’m taking you to Chuck E. Cheese.”
I stared at her for a minute, “You’re -what?-“
“Oh come on, it’ll be fun!” She sat opposite me and tugged on my shirt in a childlike manner and pouted, “Please?”
Okay really now, that’s not fair. Her puppy dog face always makes me crack. “Alright fine, you win.”
She squealed, “Great! I promise you you’ll love it.”
I roll my eyes as she gets up and heads upstairs, “Be right back!”
I’d be lying if I said wasn’t even a little bit excited, I mean, I’ve never been to Chuck E. Cheese, never been anywhere like it either. I’ve played all of about two games like that in my entire life, and they were Pacman and some shooting game. I LOVED the shooting game. However I felt like an idiot in an arcade full of kids and I left. Stupid, huh? The girl would claims she doesn’t give a shit what people think about her. Now I wont be alone though, I wont be the only idiot. I smiles as I picture B getting all excited about winning a game, who knew -that- was what makes her happy? There was no sadness at all hinted behind her excitement, she was truly happy that we’re gonna go. But then my smile fades. I’ll be completely alone with B, can I handle that?
“Faith I –" She stops when she notices my panicked look, “What’s wrong?”
“What? Huh? Oh, oh nothing. Just uh, thought I saw a spider,” I lied. *I can do this, I can hang out with B.*
“The big bad slayers afraid of a spider?” Buffy laughed, “Come on Ms. Muffet. I called Xander and he’s gonna watch Dawn while we’re out.”
I give her a small smile and get up, putting away my dishes and follow her. *I can do this, really, I can.*
TBC....
AbstractRainbow: Yes, there is a video for “Everybodys Fool.” Go to http://search.launch.yahoo.com/search/lsearch/video?p=evanescence . Its there. It’s an awesome video and Amy Lee looks SO HOT! *dies* )))
[ -- Chapter 15 -- ]
“But Buffy you aren’t being fair!” Dawn wined.
“Dawn you aren’t going out, not with Glory looking for you,” Buffy said while washing the dishes.
“But she doesn’t know its me!”
“Doesn’t matter.”
“Buffy, god, its just over Janice’s house! One night, one sleep over. Its not going to kill me!” Dawn stomped her foot to try and get her sisters attention away from the dirty dishes and on to herself, it wasn’t working and I looked on, amused.
“End of discussion.”
“Arrgg!!” Dawn yelled and ran up the stairs loudly and slammed her door for effect.
I giggled.
Buffy turned around, “What?”
“Nothing. Just Dawn’s spat was cute. Never been around the whole family thing much,” I say as I shoveled down the rest of my pancakes.
Everyone already finished before me and Buffy was washing their dishes, but I eat like a cow and was on my fourth helping.
I never forgot what B said to me that day, it was burned into my head, exact words and all. It gave me hope that maybe one day we’d be together. But I knew to get there Buffy would have to forgive herself for what she did, or at least come to terms with it, and I know that wont be for awhile. Or maybe I could help her get through it, it was me after all and I’ve gone through a whole bunch of shit to know what its like. I don’t think B would want me too though, she’s the kind of person who wants to fix things by herself. I used to do that too, still do sometimes. Guess no one fully changes.
I wish I could help her, if I could make her life perfect, make her completely happy. But I don’t have a clue how. I’ve stuck to making her smiles, and I’ve been doing a pretty good job at that. There’s still sadness behind it though, but its getting less. Its been three days since she said that and I’m slowly making progress. I made breakfast and it was ready right when she came down. The smile on her face made it all worth it. She insisted on cleaning up, mostly because I wasn’t finished eating. My bad.
“I’m sorry you had such a bad childhood, Faith.” Buffy said when she cleaned her last dish and turned around.
“Its no big,” I say, shrugging it off.
“It is though. You were deprived of the advantages of being a kid,” she sat down on the chair.
“Like what?” I look at her skeptically. *What could be so great?*
She perked up, “Oh! I have an idea!” I looked at her intently and she went on, “I’m taking you to Chuck E. Cheese.”
I stared at her for a minute, “You’re -what?-“
“Oh come on, it’ll be fun!” She sat opposite me and tugged on my shirt in a childlike manner and pouted, “Please?”
Okay really now, that’s not fair. Her puppy dog face always makes me crack. “Alright fine, you win.”
She squealed, “Great! I promise you you’ll love it.”
I roll my eyes as she gets up and heads upstairs, “Be right back!”
I’d be lying if I said wasn’t even a little bit excited, I mean, I’ve never been to Chuck E. Cheese, never been anywhere like it either. I’ve played all of about two games like that in my entire life, and they were Pacman and some shooting game. I LOVED the shooting game. However I felt like an idiot in an arcade full of kids and I left. Stupid, huh? The girl would claims she doesn’t give a shit what people think about her. Now I wont be alone though, I wont be the only idiot. I smiles as I picture B getting all excited about winning a game, who knew -that- was what makes her happy? There was no sadness at all hinted behind her excitement, she was truly happy that we’re gonna go. But then my smile fades. I’ll be completely alone with B, can I handle that?
“Faith I –" She stops when she notices my panicked look, “What’s wrong?”
“What? Huh? Oh, oh nothing. Just uh, thought I saw a spider,” I lied. *I can do this, I can hang out with B.*
“The big bad slayers afraid of a spider?” Buffy laughed, “Come on Ms. Muffet. I called Xander and he’s gonna watch Dawn while we’re out.”
I give her a small smile and get up, putting away my dishes and follow her. *I can do this, really, I can.*
TBC....