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Better If I Walk Away
Buffy stood in the late hours of the night in the tiny white room watching Faith in her troubled unconscious state. Every little while she would catch her name falling from her soft pouted lips. It wasn't so hard to love Faith when she was asleep and
her all knowing eyes and were closed.
"Love Faith...I love Faith?"
"Yes,you do." a part of her said matter of factly. For once Buffy actually didn't feel like arguing, for once she didn't feel the need to fight back.
"But she doesn't love me. I mean maybe she did,but not anymore,I pushed her away because I was too insecure. Look at her,all
passed for Sam,she loves her now." A pang went through her chest as her words sunk in. But it was true,Faith couldn't love her
anymore because she had someone that flew circles around her mean old self.
"But you can get her back. She's always wanted you,since the first time she laid eyes on you she's wanted you. You don't just
forget all of that over night. She may try and try,but in the end it's you she wants,not...Sam." the voice explained cooly.
Buffy leaned over the bed,watching a little drop of sweat travel from her brow to the side of her face and down to her neck where it lingered on her pulse point. It was a rather intoxicating scene. Buffy leaned a little closer,close enough that Faith's
exhales were her inhales. "There's a differnece between wanting somebody,and loving somebody,Faith wants me."
"And you want her right back. Faith me seem like she's changed,but she hasn't. She'd pick her desire over smoochy stuff anyday and you know it."
Buffy stared down on Faith,"Want.Take.Have," her mind told her as she closed the small space between them,and pressed her lips to Faith's. Such soft lips,so full and warm. So addicting upon contact,so teasing,so delicious,so Faith. Her body went rigid, and her eyes flashed a deep menacing black...
"Mmmm," Faith moaned underneath her,her lips parting and just begging her to enter. She closed her eyes and deepened the kiss,
running her tongue slowly over Faith's. It was completely euphoric,she had been missing this all this time,but not anymore.
Buffy felt the kiss deepen and opened her eyes to Faith's brown ones looking at her confused and lustfully.
"B?" she asked.
"Shhhh,don't say anything." Buffy silenced her with another kiss and was pleased to fiind Faith willing to comply.
"B,Sam-"
"Is fine. She's alive,but you know she's not immortal anymore." Buffy sighed as Faith pushed her away rather roughly. Faith was
glaring at her like she was a disgusting bug that needed to be exterminated at once. "Faith you know as well as I do,that you want me."
Faith was quiet,looking down rather hurt so she continued.
"Look what happened when you let her in,she dies. But I won't die,I'm as strong as you,as fast as you. I'm a part of you Faith.
And you're a part of me. We're the chosen two,we're connected far more than you'll ever be with anyone else."
"And why are you telling me this?" Faith sounded like she was about to cry,Buffy found it cute to see the real Faith was so soft and gentle.
"Because I see that now. Faith,I want you."
Faith shivered,she knew it was true. She wanted her all the time she knew her,and it was also tru that B was her other half. B wouldn't die on her because if she did,their slayer link would kill her as well. And that would be so easy. She could have B and not have to worry about feeling the pain of loss,cause once B was gone she would be gone too,just like that thanks to their
link. No shame,no pain,no regrets to think about. It was too easy and she chose...
"So what do you say we get out of here?"
Buffy grinned like she had just won the lottery, "I'll get my jacket."
"But I want to see Sam before we go,I want to say goodbye."
"Whatever you want babe. Room 203."
"Thanks. I'll be right back." she said,getting to her feet and placing her boots on them. She stood rather stiffly and walked
right out of the room. She traveled down the hall,her head hanging low,her heart lower. All this time she thought the day Buffy accepted her she would be leaping for joy,with B in her arms kissing her and telling her how much she loved her.
This was not the case. She probably would have reacted better to dogshit than she was to this,but as room 203 came into view, she knew what she was going to do. Her hand reached out for the knob and it seemed that it took forever to turn it and then forever for the door to swing open. Taking a deep breath she stepped inside.
Her heart wanted to jump out of her chest,it was pounding like crazy, and she had to stop moving and shake her head to clear the fuzzyness that was forming. Sam was covered from head to toe in gadgets,wires,and tubes. A mask still slipped on her face fogged her with her short chompy breathes,the monitor beeping steadily with each one.
"Sammy," Faith said in a choked sob,stiffly walking to the side of her bed. It was too much,she saw one of her tears fall and
land on Sammy's pale still hand. "Hey," she said taking the hand in both of hers,Sammy remained still,the only thing letting Faith know she was alive the beeping of the machine.
Faith chuckled,her tears burning her eyes,each breath a burdern. She stroked Sammy's hair back smiling lovingly. "Death is thy huband and has claimed thee,yet thou art still fair." she whispered. "Now all I need is poison and we'll be good." she joked.
The silence was slowly eating away at her;it was disturbing.
"I wanted to tell you something Sam," she smiled through her cries."I love you. I know you know. You're the best thing thats ever happened to me. You taught me how to love and you didn't hold back. You let me know how it feels to have somebody care. I dont-" she breathed trying to calm herself, "I don't deserve to be with you,but while I was it was perfect. I can't deal with the thought of you being hurt. You gave me everything and in turn I turned my back on you for my past as soon as I had the chance...and now look at you."
She broke down,her sobs were quiet to the ears,but loud and clear to the heart. "I know there's someone out there waiting to give you everything you deserve...I wish it could be me." Faith placed a soft kiss on the palm of her hand,laying her warm cheek
against her cool skin,"I love you Sam...and that's why it's better if I walk away." She felt her skin on hers for a few seconds,
then tucked her hand back under the blanket and gave her one final kiss on the lips before turning away swiftly and closing the
door behind her.
Outside of the room Buffy was leaning against the wall looking at her rather coyly, "Hey."
"Hey."
Buffy raised a brow, "Were you crying?" she asked amused.
The hardest part is letting go. Faith swiped the back of her hand across her face and looked back up at her with a crooked grin,
"I don't cry B." she said heading for the hospital entrance. Buffy shrugged and followed after her.
"I thought as much." she said to Faith,taking her hand and starting the short walk back home.
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(Spov)
Well damnit all to hell...what did Aunt Claire do? I mean did she accidently leave me in the void between consciousness and unconsciousness? This is freaky,it's like that one show I saw on tv,where this dude is getting surgery and wakes up in the middle of it but can't do anything cause he's drugged,and all he does is feel everything that's happening to him...
Yikes...I hope I'm not in suregery,cause I'm definately feeling everything right now. I can feel,hear,think. But I can't open my
eyes and I couldn't move to sace my life...not even flutter my lids. Stupid aunt Claire probably-...
What's that?...I can feel someone watching me. I freeze,I know this presence...it's Faith. Thank god! She's okay and I'm okay and we're all okay,it couldn't have turned out better even if I planned it...and it couldn't have turnd out worse.
I feel her take my hand gently into hers and she's crying,it sounds so sorrowful,it hurts me to hear Faith cry. She is speaking,
saying something about death and his husband and how fair he is...weird. Okay so maybe I should stop thinking so damn much and
listen to what she's saying,it can't really be about the gay angel of death and his gay reaper boyfriend...but then again... Faith is totally weird and awesome like that. Okay listen!
"I know there's someone out there waiting to give you everything you deserve-"
It's you Faith.
"I wish it could be me."
What is she saying! What does she mean?! I feel her tears as she kisses my palm and presses it against her warm skin. Faith! What are you doing?...
"I love you Sam...and that's why it's better if I walk away."
No Faith! It's not better! She tucks my hand under the blanket,my heart breaking as I fell her warm gentle lips press softly against mine...and then's she pulls away...and the room is silent. I wish she could have been there just a little longer,she would have heard my simple,weak breathless whimper...
"faith..."
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Luc watched through the mirror on the wall as the two slayers headed back to their house hand in hand and chortled. If he had known before that something so simple could be done to possess the slayers and kill them,he could have avoided getting thousands
more like him killed.
"So easy," Raemeus whistled,breaking off the link. It was just too easy to possess a slayer when she was so emotionally
vunerable...it was almost pathetic. "A week's time Luc...a week's time and we'll be rid of those godforsaken slayers."
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Where ever you are you will always carry...
Truth of the scars and darkness of your Faith...
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AN: Tears tears. So whatcha guys think of that one?
her all knowing eyes and were closed.
"Love Faith...I love Faith?"
"Yes,you do." a part of her said matter of factly. For once Buffy actually didn't feel like arguing, for once she didn't feel the need to fight back.
"But she doesn't love me. I mean maybe she did,but not anymore,I pushed her away because I was too insecure. Look at her,all
passed for Sam,she loves her now." A pang went through her chest as her words sunk in. But it was true,Faith couldn't love her
anymore because she had someone that flew circles around her mean old self.
"But you can get her back. She's always wanted you,since the first time she laid eyes on you she's wanted you. You don't just
forget all of that over night. She may try and try,but in the end it's you she wants,not...Sam." the voice explained cooly.
Buffy leaned over the bed,watching a little drop of sweat travel from her brow to the side of her face and down to her neck where it lingered on her pulse point. It was a rather intoxicating scene. Buffy leaned a little closer,close enough that Faith's
exhales were her inhales. "There's a differnece between wanting somebody,and loving somebody,Faith wants me."
"And you want her right back. Faith me seem like she's changed,but she hasn't. She'd pick her desire over smoochy stuff anyday and you know it."
Buffy stared down on Faith,"Want.Take.Have," her mind told her as she closed the small space between them,and pressed her lips to Faith's. Such soft lips,so full and warm. So addicting upon contact,so teasing,so delicious,so Faith. Her body went rigid, and her eyes flashed a deep menacing black...
"Mmmm," Faith moaned underneath her,her lips parting and just begging her to enter. She closed her eyes and deepened the kiss,
running her tongue slowly over Faith's. It was completely euphoric,she had been missing this all this time,but not anymore.
Buffy felt the kiss deepen and opened her eyes to Faith's brown ones looking at her confused and lustfully.
"B?" she asked.
"Shhhh,don't say anything." Buffy silenced her with another kiss and was pleased to fiind Faith willing to comply.
"B,Sam-"
"Is fine. She's alive,but you know she's not immortal anymore." Buffy sighed as Faith pushed her away rather roughly. Faith was
glaring at her like she was a disgusting bug that needed to be exterminated at once. "Faith you know as well as I do,that you want me."
Faith was quiet,looking down rather hurt so she continued.
"Look what happened when you let her in,she dies. But I won't die,I'm as strong as you,as fast as you. I'm a part of you Faith.
And you're a part of me. We're the chosen two,we're connected far more than you'll ever be with anyone else."
"And why are you telling me this?" Faith sounded like she was about to cry,Buffy found it cute to see the real Faith was so soft and gentle.
"Because I see that now. Faith,I want you."
Faith shivered,she knew it was true. She wanted her all the time she knew her,and it was also tru that B was her other half. B wouldn't die on her because if she did,their slayer link would kill her as well. And that would be so easy. She could have B and not have to worry about feeling the pain of loss,cause once B was gone she would be gone too,just like that thanks to their
link. No shame,no pain,no regrets to think about. It was too easy and she chose...
"So what do you say we get out of here?"
Buffy grinned like she had just won the lottery, "I'll get my jacket."
"But I want to see Sam before we go,I want to say goodbye."
"Whatever you want babe. Room 203."
"Thanks. I'll be right back." she said,getting to her feet and placing her boots on them. She stood rather stiffly and walked
right out of the room. She traveled down the hall,her head hanging low,her heart lower. All this time she thought the day Buffy accepted her she would be leaping for joy,with B in her arms kissing her and telling her how much she loved her.
This was not the case. She probably would have reacted better to dogshit than she was to this,but as room 203 came into view, she knew what she was going to do. Her hand reached out for the knob and it seemed that it took forever to turn it and then forever for the door to swing open. Taking a deep breath she stepped inside.
Her heart wanted to jump out of her chest,it was pounding like crazy, and she had to stop moving and shake her head to clear the fuzzyness that was forming. Sam was covered from head to toe in gadgets,wires,and tubes. A mask still slipped on her face fogged her with her short chompy breathes,the monitor beeping steadily with each one.
"Sammy," Faith said in a choked sob,stiffly walking to the side of her bed. It was too much,she saw one of her tears fall and
land on Sammy's pale still hand. "Hey," she said taking the hand in both of hers,Sammy remained still,the only thing letting Faith know she was alive the beeping of the machine.
Faith chuckled,her tears burning her eyes,each breath a burdern. She stroked Sammy's hair back smiling lovingly. "Death is thy huband and has claimed thee,yet thou art still fair." she whispered. "Now all I need is poison and we'll be good." she joked.
The silence was slowly eating away at her;it was disturbing.
"I wanted to tell you something Sam," she smiled through her cries."I love you. I know you know. You're the best thing thats ever happened to me. You taught me how to love and you didn't hold back. You let me know how it feels to have somebody care. I dont-" she breathed trying to calm herself, "I don't deserve to be with you,but while I was it was perfect. I can't deal with the thought of you being hurt. You gave me everything and in turn I turned my back on you for my past as soon as I had the chance...and now look at you."
She broke down,her sobs were quiet to the ears,but loud and clear to the heart. "I know there's someone out there waiting to give you everything you deserve...I wish it could be me." Faith placed a soft kiss on the palm of her hand,laying her warm cheek
against her cool skin,"I love you Sam...and that's why it's better if I walk away." She felt her skin on hers for a few seconds,
then tucked her hand back under the blanket and gave her one final kiss on the lips before turning away swiftly and closing the
door behind her.
Outside of the room Buffy was leaning against the wall looking at her rather coyly, "Hey."
"Hey."
Buffy raised a brow, "Were you crying?" she asked amused.
The hardest part is letting go. Faith swiped the back of her hand across her face and looked back up at her with a crooked grin,
"I don't cry B." she said heading for the hospital entrance. Buffy shrugged and followed after her.
"I thought as much." she said to Faith,taking her hand and starting the short walk back home.
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(Spov)
Well damnit all to hell...what did Aunt Claire do? I mean did she accidently leave me in the void between consciousness and unconsciousness? This is freaky,it's like that one show I saw on tv,where this dude is getting surgery and wakes up in the middle of it but can't do anything cause he's drugged,and all he does is feel everything that's happening to him...
Yikes...I hope I'm not in suregery,cause I'm definately feeling everything right now. I can feel,hear,think. But I can't open my
eyes and I couldn't move to sace my life...not even flutter my lids. Stupid aunt Claire probably-...
What's that?...I can feel someone watching me. I freeze,I know this presence...it's Faith. Thank god! She's okay and I'm okay and we're all okay,it couldn't have turned out better even if I planned it...and it couldn't have turnd out worse.
I feel her take my hand gently into hers and she's crying,it sounds so sorrowful,it hurts me to hear Faith cry. She is speaking,
saying something about death and his husband and how fair he is...weird. Okay so maybe I should stop thinking so damn much and
listen to what she's saying,it can't really be about the gay angel of death and his gay reaper boyfriend...but then again... Faith is totally weird and awesome like that. Okay listen!
"I know there's someone out there waiting to give you everything you deserve-"
It's you Faith.
"I wish it could be me."
What is she saying! What does she mean?! I feel her tears as she kisses my palm and presses it against her warm skin. Faith! What are you doing?...
"I love you Sam...and that's why it's better if I walk away."
No Faith! It's not better! She tucks my hand under the blanket,my heart breaking as I fell her warm gentle lips press softly against mine...and then's she pulls away...and the room is silent. I wish she could have been there just a little longer,she would have heard my simple,weak breathless whimper...
"faith..."
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Luc watched through the mirror on the wall as the two slayers headed back to their house hand in hand and chortled. If he had known before that something so simple could be done to possess the slayers and kill them,he could have avoided getting thousands
more like him killed.
"So easy," Raemeus whistled,breaking off the link. It was just too easy to possess a slayer when she was so emotionally
vunerable...it was almost pathetic. "A week's time Luc...a week's time and we'll be rid of those godforsaken slayers."
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Where ever you are you will always carry...
Truth of the scars and darkness of your Faith...
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AN: Tears tears. So whatcha guys think of that one?