So Many Tears

Title: So Many Tears 12

Rating: NC-17

Author: Justchicky2bme

Pairing: If you don’t know by now, B/F

Disclaimer: Characters and show belong to JW and ME and whoever else. The story is mine.

Archive: Oooh yeah would love for someone to archive, just ask me first so I know, and attach my name of course.

Feedback: If I don’t get feedback I don’t write, ok well maybe I will but it’ll take me longer. xtrekangel@yahoo.com

Notes: Took some time for me to write this, feeling particularly bad, headache meds making tired. Shouldn’t be writing this but can’t stay in bed. Hope you like.



For a brief moment she felt her heart stop, it had happened before, awhile back. The first time it was when her eyes looked upon an angel, she had to have been with a smile like that and this twinkle in her eyes that just couldn’t be placed. The second was when that angel had confessed her love for her, it seemed such a dream, so inconceivable that she would choose someone like her. Now it has stopped again as those perfect eyes look up with such love, even after what she had done to this angel, she still had love in those eyes. Weakened, a little pale, and somewhat grimy she was still so beautiful that words could not describe the thousands of emotions rising from her at this moment, and she thanked God that she was allowed to be in this angels presence.

‘Hi.’ She managed weakly. Faith grabbed her a cup of water and lifted it to the older girls lips, tilting a little so she could only sip a little.

‘How you feelin B?’ She asked taking the cup away again.

‘Like crap.’ She smiled a little and Faith couldn’t help but grin.

‘I think the worst is over.’ She stood up then leaned down and picked the smaller girl up in her arms. She had taken the shackles off awhile ago.

‘Where are you taking me?’

‘We’re gonna get you cleaned up and maybe if you’re good some fresh air.’ Faith grinned down at the blond.

‘I haven’t felt this weak in, …..I don’t know how long.’

‘Well if you weren’t a slayer you might not have survived.’ Faith said quietly not looking at the blond as she went up the stairs. ‘You’ll be top dog in no time.’ She smiled again.

‘Really I get to be on top?’ Buffy almost mumbled as she smiled and rested her head against Faiths chest.

‘You must be feelin better B.’ Faith smirked. She opened the door and the bright sunlight of early morning burst forth. Buffy cringed a little as the light hit her eyes.

‘Buffy!’ Everyone exclaimed in unison getting up from their positions.

‘She’s not dead is she?’ Kennedy asked.

‘No, I’m just going to go get her cleaned up.’ Faith said walking past them and up the stairs to their room. Once inside Faith laid her down on the bed and walked into the bathroom. She started the water in the tub and grabbed a toothbrush, put toothpaste on it, and a cup of water to rinse her mouth with. She propped the blond up against the headboard and began to brush her teeth for her.

‘You know I’m not an invalid.’ Buffy smiled at her when she had finished.

‘Naw, but since I did this to you, the least I can do is spoil and pamper you.’

‘A girl could get used to this.’ Faith walked back to the bathroom and returned a moment later.

‘Ok now the fun part.’ She smirked down at the blond and began taking her clothes off. Buffy helped her a little but let Faith do most of the work. Then the brunette picked her up in her arms again and carried her to the bathroom and placed her in the tub. Buffy sighed as the hot water washed over her body. Faith grabbed a washcloth and began to gently wash the blonds back. The preceded to wash the rest of her body, being very gentle and slow. The hot water had made the blond feel even weaker and she soon fell asleep. Faith continued to clean her girlfriend, washing her hair as well. Buffy seemed to be too exhausted to do much of anything, so the brunette once again picked up the blond slayer, wrapping her in a towel and carried her back to the bed. The blond mumbled something under her breath as Faith laid her down and kissed her on the forehead. Then she got some clothes and began dressing her girlfriend, just some sweats and a t shirt, something comfortable. After dressing her and trying no to wake the girl, she brushed her hair for her, then lay down and pulled the blond into her arms and fell asleep.

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Buffy opened woke feeling considerably better than she had earlier, although her stomach growled in pain and her mouth felt like a desert. Her head was in Faith’s hair, taking a deep breath she breathes in her girlfriends scent and smiled. It was going to be hard to work on their relationship in dealing with Faith’s cheating, but the blond felt they were a great deal closer than they had ever been. She wrapped her arms around the brunette and pulled her tightly against her.

‘Whoa B, ya miss me?’ Faith’s eyes opened and she looked at the blond with her trademark smirk.

‘Yeah.’ Buffy said, her voice still sounded weak. The brunette placed kisses on Buffy’s cheeks and hugged her back.

‘You up for the Scoobies?’ She asked.

‘I should probably apologize,… again.’ The blond closed her eyes.

‘I don’t think they’re looking for one.’

‘But they deserve one.’

‘Ok then, let’s go.’ Faith once again picked the blond up. Buffy giggled.

‘How long are you going to do this?’

‘I dunno, the rest of my life.’ They walked out the door and down the stairs. Faith realized they must have been sleep for a couple of hours, it had to be at least 1 o’clock if not later. The gang was gathered in the living room watching tv. They all jumped up as soon as Faith walked in.

‘Is something wrong with her legs?’ Anya asked.

‘She’s a little weak right now.’ Faith said.

‘You can let me down now.’ Buffy said, and the brunette stood her up, one hand holding the blonds waist to support her. ‘I just wanted to tell all of you that I’m sorry. I let my problems affect you and my duties as a slayer. I’m sorry that I let everyone down.’ Dawn rushed over hugging her sister and crying.

‘Don’t ever do that again.’ She cried into the blonds shoulder. Buffy pulled her sister into a tight hug.

‘I’m sorry Dawnie.’ She whispered. Faith watched as the whole gang smiled and seemed to reject the notion of their friend needing to apologize. It was smiles and hugs all around.

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Faith helped Buffy walk out to the back yard and sit down on a bench, and handed her a glass of water.

‘I put one of those cool straws in it.’ Faith said grinning. Buffy laughed a little as she took a sip. The sun felt good, especially after having been locked up in the basement for two days. Titling her head up she closed her eyes. Faith sighed.

‘You think we can get past what I did?’ She asked her voice turned serious. Buffy thought a moment.

‘Yes. In the end you were there for me when it counted.’

‘But I’m the one who did this all to you, and like you said I wasn’t there at first.’

‘I know, but you did come back, you tried to fix everything you did. It’s going to be hard, I’m not sure I can forget everything, but I think………… I think I’ve finally forgiven you.’ She turned her head and looked at the brunette, who smiled back in return. They looked into each others eyes.

‘It’s going to be hard, not drinking, you’re gonna want too everyday.’

‘As long as you’re here with me, I promise I won’t.’ Faith leaned in and kissed her gently on the lips. When she pulled away, Buffy rested her head on Faith’s shoulder. Wood came walking into the backyard.

‘If it isn’t principle boy.’ Faith stiffened slightly at his sight.

‘Are you alright Buffy? They say you’ve been sick but wouldn’t let me see you.’ He stood before them, his eyes glowing with concern for the blond.

‘I’m alright now.’ Buffy said.

‘You weren’t sick what was wrong?’ He crouched down and took Buffy’s hand in his. Faith glared at him.

‘It was just something I had to deal with, but I’m fine, I promise.’ She gave him a smile. His head turned and he glared at Faith.

‘What did you do to her now?’

‘She didn’t do anything.’ Buffy interjected.

‘Look she’s fine, she told you that.’

‘She doesn’t look fine.’

‘Well she is. Now that you’ve seen she’s alive you can go.’

‘I’m tired of you and you’re attitude. Coming here and tearing her life apart.’ He stood and Faith followed suite.

‘You mean coming in here and stepping into you’re territory.’ Faith growled back at him. ‘It kills you to see he with me doesn’t it? You aren’t man enough for her.’

Wood swung his fist at her, but Faith ducked and hit him in the stomach.

‘Stop you guys.’ Buffy tried to yell. Both got into their fighting stances as the blond started to stand up.

‘You don’t think you can take me do you?’ Faith asked with a smirk. Then both launched themselves at each other, going almost blow for blow but the brunette was winning.

‘Stop it.’ Buffy tried to yell again. The back door burst open and everyone came out of the house.

‘What’s going on.’ Xander asked.

‘Will stop them.’ Buffy looked pleadingly at the witch. Faith took an uppercut to the jaw, and was about to do a roundhouse when suddenly she went flying backwards and landed on the ground with a grunt.

‘Shit, what was that?’ Faith groaned as she tried to stand back up.

‘Faith, are you ok?’ Buffy came over and tried to hher her girlfriend up.

‘Yeah B, why’d you sick Red on me though?’

‘I had to stop you two. You need to stop all this fighting.’ She turned and looked at Wood who was grabbing his side. ‘And I can take care of myself, I don’t need you watching my every step.’

‘Buffy I…’

‘No, I’ll see you at school in a few days.’ She said interrupting him. He glared at them a moment before walking off. Buffy turned back to Faith. ‘Come on let’s go inside.’ Faith wrapped her arm around Buffy’s shoulders and together they went inside the house.



TBC I think I’m not sure. What do you think?