So Many Tears
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-Buffy the Vampire Slayer › FemmeSlash - Female/Female › Buffy/Faith
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Adult ++
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12
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11
Title: So Many Tears 11
Rating: NC-17
Author: Justchicky2bme
Pairing: If you don’t know by now, B/F
Disclaimer: Characters and show belong to JW and ME and whoever else. The story is mine.
Archive: Oooh yeah would love for someone to archive, just ask me first so I know, and attach my name of course.
Feedback: If I don’t get feedback I don’t write, ok well maybe I will but it’ll take me longer. xtrekangel@yahoo.com
Notes: I’m tired and don’t feel good, but here ya go.
Her eyes flutter open and she groans at the pain in her head. Reaching up to touch it, she realizes her hands are b. T. The cuffs holding her are too strong for her too break from. The she realizes where she is, the cold dark basement. Her clothes have also been changed, now she’s in a tank top and pajama bottoms. Her hair is still wet, she can’t tell how long she’s been out. Then she sees the dark figure at the bottom of the stairs.
‘How you feeling.’ Faith’s voice stirs in the darkness.
‘I’m not sure, considering my girlfriend knocked me out and has chained me to the wall in the basement.’
‘You left me no choice.’
‘Are you going to get me out of these things?’
‘No, not yet.’
‘Where’s Willow at, she’s not going to be happy when she finds out what you did.’
‘She’s upstairs.’
‘Willow!’ Buffy yells at the top of her lungs. After a minute the basement door opens shedding a stream of light down onto Faith. The witch comes down the stairs. She looks nervous. ‘Wills thank God, get me out of these things.’ The witch nervously looks from Buffy to Faith who shrugs. She turns and looks at the blond.
‘I’m sorry Buffy but…… this is for the best.’ She looks down at the ground.
‘What!? What are you talking about?’
‘You need to let us help you.’
‘Are you talking about the drinking, because I can just stop. I just wanted a drink today, there’s no crime in that.’ Her eyes were wild.
‘It is a crime when it affects everyone.’ Faith said standing up.
‘What and cheating doesn’t effect everyone?’ The blond spat out angrily. Faith winced slightly. ‘I’m sorry, just let me out of these and we can talk.’ Buffy turned to pleading.
‘I’ve tried talking to you already.’
‘What so you don’t get what you want so you chain me up in the basement?’
‘I did what I had to do B.’ Faith looked at Willow, and the witch went back up the stairs. ‘You rest and I’ll get you some water.’ Then the brunette walked up the stairs and closed the door behind her shrouding the basement in darkness once again. Buffy growled in frustration and pulled harder at her restraints. They still didn’t move and she fell against the bed in frustration.
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A light flicked on near the bed and the blond tried to shield her eyes as she opened them. She could see a hand move towards her with a glass of water. She grabbed it putting it up to her parched lips and drank greedily.
‘Woah, slow down there.’ She recognized the voice as Xander’s. He adjusted the light so it wasn’t shining in her eyes.
‘Is everyone in on this?’ Buffy asked giving him a slight scowl.
‘We just want to help you Buffy.’
‘Maybe I don’t want you’re help.’
‘You don’t have a choice.’ He pulled up a chair and sat down.\rherehere’s Faith?’
‘On patrol, someone’s gotta do the slaying.’
‘How come you’re on her side now?’
‘I’m not on anyone’s side. I’m you’re friend, we all just want to help you.’ Buffy sighed.
‘I’m sorry Xander.’ She looked down at her cup.
‘You know even with everything that she’s done, I can tell she loves you.’ Buffy looked up at him. ‘Of course given the chance I still think Wills should work some magic on her. You know turn her into something, maybe some excruciating pain.’ He offered her with a smile. She gave him a small smile back. He stood up. ‘Well I better go check on the womenfolk.’ He started to walk up the stairs and stopped halfway up. ‘Nothing is worth doing this to yourself, not even her.’ Then he turned and walked up the stairs closing the door behind him. Buffy was beginning to realize what she was doing to her friends. They seemed determined to help her none the less, and that’s why they were still friends. Still something inside her wanted a drink, told her everything would be ok. She lay back on the bed curling up into a ball. Buffy was beginning to feel sick, all she need was a drink and she’d feel better, a little drink.
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‘B?’ Buffy looked up into Faith’s eyes. The brunette was crouched beside the bed look at Buffy with concern. The blonds vision swayed slightly as she tried to sit up. ‘Come on B, you need to drink this.’ Faith put the cup up to Buffy’s lips and the blond took a small sip before jerking her head away. She felt if she drank any more she’d throw up all over. Buffy didn’t know how long she’d been locked up in the basement, but it felt like an eternity. Faith tried to get her to take another sip, but Buffy kept her head turned away. ‘You’re gonna get dehydrated.’ Buffy’s head didn’t move. Faith sighed and sat down in the chair. The older girl leaned back against the wall and looked at her girlfriend.
‘Are you going to take these chains off me now?’ She asked bitterly.
‘No.’
‘What do you like to torture me?’
‘Look what happened, happened, we can’t change things no matter how much I wish we could. Stop doing this to yourself Buffy.’
‘You did this to me!’ Her eyes welled with tears. ‘When I died and they brought me back………. Do you know what that did to me, how long it took for me to feel again, like I used to. I was never truly happy no matter how hard I tried. And then you came back and things changed. After we got over everything in the past and worked things out and…… and….. I fell in love with you it was the happiest I had ever been. I felt like I was in heaven and I cared whether I died or not. You made things better.’ Faith got up and crouched down in front of the blond, her eyes slightly teary. ‘When I almost died again and those demons fucked with my brain and I saw you……….. It felt like I had died, and you had torn me away from heaven again. You abandoned me and left me stranded. I was drowning in the pain you had caused and I was beginning to sink. Spike gave me a drink and it felt like a way out, a way to forget. I know that’s wrong and stupid but it was all I could think of. That first time I got drunk and everything disappeared…………. I just wanted the pain to go away.’
‘Oh God baby I’m so sorry.’ Faith’s hands clutched at Buffy’s legs. ‘Maybe we can just start over.’
‘How many times are we going to do that Faith?’
‘As many times as we gotta to get it right.’ Buffy closed her eyes and grimaced. ‘What’s wrong?’
‘I’m going to be sick.’ Buffy managed between clenched teeth. Faith quickly grabbed a bucket as Buffy leaned over and began retch. She tried to hold the blonds hair back. After a minute Buffy lay down on the bed, her body shacking and sweating as her body began to go through withdrawal. Faith grabbed a washcloth from a bowl of water and wiped the blonds mouth then grabbing another washcloth she wiped the sweat from her forehead as well. She grabbed a hair tie and propped Buffy up, putting her hair back in a ponytail. Then she sat down on the bed and let the blonds head rest on her lap as she continued to use the washcloth to cool Buffy’s skin.
The others began to doubt their decision, or rather Faith’s decision that they just agreed with. Buffy continued to throw up the contents of her stomach, all the while Faith tried to get her to keep water down. The brunette insisted this was necessary, and that Willow doing magic would not help Buffy, the blond needed to go through this. Wood began lurking around the house, stopping by when he found out she wasn’t going to be going to work. Willow told him she wasn’t feeling well enough to see anybody, but he didn’t believe her. He was beginning to get on the brunettes nerves. The man was too concerned with her girlfriends’ life and she didn’t like that at all. Faith herself never left her girlfriends side and had Spike and Wood do the patrolling on the second day as night came upon them.
‘Are you sure she’s going to be ok?’ Willow said in a hushed whisper.
‘Yeah, the fever will break soon.’ Faith answered in an equally hushed voice.
‘She doesn’t look so good.’ They both looked at the blond as she moaned in her sleep.
‘She’s been through a lot the last couple of hours.’ She paused and watched her girlfriends movements on the bed. ‘What time is it?’
‘Nearly 1 in the morning.’
‘You and the gang can get some sleep, I’ll watch her.’
‘Are you sure, you haven’t gotten any sleep at all.’
‘I’m a slayer, I think I can handle it Red.’
‘Even slayers need their sleep.’
‘Not this one. Not when I need to take care of B.’ A pause as silence sunk in.
‘You do love her don’t you?’
‘Yeah, even when I tried not too.’ They stood there a nt int in silence.
‘You’ll wake me up if something happens right?’
‘You’ll be the first to know Red.’ She smiled a little at the witch as the redhead walked up the stairs. Faith sighed, and stood there watching Buffy. The blond was probably having nightmares, but as soon as the fever broke she would be able to sleep peacefully. The sight of the older girl was tearing Faith up. This girl, no woman, meant everything to her and she destroyed her trust. Faith never wanted to let this woman go again and would do anything and give up anything just to be with her forever. She walked back over to the cot and held the girl in her arms, hoping that somehow she could bring a little comfort just by doing this small act. Faith realized Buffy had really changed her. She was thinking of something that she never thought she’d ever think about, though when this girl came into her life it had crossed her mind a couple of times. Right now she was wondering if that thought could become a reality.
Rating: NC-17
Author: Justchicky2bme
Pairing: If you don’t know by now, B/F
Disclaimer: Characters and show belong to JW and ME and whoever else. The story is mine.
Archive: Oooh yeah would love for someone to archive, just ask me first so I know, and attach my name of course.
Feedback: If I don’t get feedback I don’t write, ok well maybe I will but it’ll take me longer. xtrekangel@yahoo.com
Notes: I’m tired and don’t feel good, but here ya go.
Her eyes flutter open and she groans at the pain in her head. Reaching up to touch it, she realizes her hands are b. T. The cuffs holding her are too strong for her too break from. The she realizes where she is, the cold dark basement. Her clothes have also been changed, now she’s in a tank top and pajama bottoms. Her hair is still wet, she can’t tell how long she’s been out. Then she sees the dark figure at the bottom of the stairs.
‘How you feeling.’ Faith’s voice stirs in the darkness.
‘I’m not sure, considering my girlfriend knocked me out and has chained me to the wall in the basement.’
‘You left me no choice.’
‘Are you going to get me out of these things?’
‘No, not yet.’
‘Where’s Willow at, she’s not going to be happy when she finds out what you did.’
‘She’s upstairs.’
‘Willow!’ Buffy yells at the top of her lungs. After a minute the basement door opens shedding a stream of light down onto Faith. The witch comes down the stairs. She looks nervous. ‘Wills thank God, get me out of these things.’ The witch nervously looks from Buffy to Faith who shrugs. She turns and looks at the blond.
‘I’m sorry Buffy but…… this is for the best.’ She looks down at the ground.
‘What!? What are you talking about?’
‘You need to let us help you.’
‘Are you talking about the drinking, because I can just stop. I just wanted a drink today, there’s no crime in that.’ Her eyes were wild.
‘It is a crime when it affects everyone.’ Faith said standing up.
‘What and cheating doesn’t effect everyone?’ The blond spat out angrily. Faith winced slightly. ‘I’m sorry, just let me out of these and we can talk.’ Buffy turned to pleading.
‘I’ve tried talking to you already.’
‘What so you don’t get what you want so you chain me up in the basement?’
‘I did what I had to do B.’ Faith looked at Willow, and the witch went back up the stairs. ‘You rest and I’ll get you some water.’ Then the brunette walked up the stairs and closed the door behind her shrouding the basement in darkness once again. Buffy growled in frustration and pulled harder at her restraints. They still didn’t move and she fell against the bed in frustration.
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A light flicked on near the bed and the blond tried to shield her eyes as she opened them. She could see a hand move towards her with a glass of water. She grabbed it putting it up to her parched lips and drank greedily.
‘Woah, slow down there.’ She recognized the voice as Xander’s. He adjusted the light so it wasn’t shining in her eyes.
‘Is everyone in on this?’ Buffy asked giving him a slight scowl.
‘We just want to help you Buffy.’
‘Maybe I don’t want you’re help.’
‘You don’t have a choice.’ He pulled up a chair and sat down.\rherehere’s Faith?’
‘On patrol, someone’s gotta do the slaying.’
‘How come you’re on her side now?’
‘I’m not on anyone’s side. I’m you’re friend, we all just want to help you.’ Buffy sighed.
‘I’m sorry Xander.’ She looked down at her cup.
‘You know even with everything that she’s done, I can tell she loves you.’ Buffy looked up at him. ‘Of course given the chance I still think Wills should work some magic on her. You know turn her into something, maybe some excruciating pain.’ He offered her with a smile. She gave him a small smile back. He stood up. ‘Well I better go check on the womenfolk.’ He started to walk up the stairs and stopped halfway up. ‘Nothing is worth doing this to yourself, not even her.’ Then he turned and walked up the stairs closing the door behind him. Buffy was beginning to realize what she was doing to her friends. They seemed determined to help her none the less, and that’s why they were still friends. Still something inside her wanted a drink, told her everything would be ok. She lay back on the bed curling up into a ball. Buffy was beginning to feel sick, all she need was a drink and she’d feel better, a little drink.
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‘B?’ Buffy looked up into Faith’s eyes. The brunette was crouched beside the bed look at Buffy with concern. The blonds vision swayed slightly as she tried to sit up. ‘Come on B, you need to drink this.’ Faith put the cup up to Buffy’s lips and the blond took a small sip before jerking her head away. She felt if she drank any more she’d throw up all over. Buffy didn’t know how long she’d been locked up in the basement, but it felt like an eternity. Faith tried to get her to take another sip, but Buffy kept her head turned away. ‘You’re gonna get dehydrated.’ Buffy’s head didn’t move. Faith sighed and sat down in the chair. The older girl leaned back against the wall and looked at her girlfriend.
‘Are you going to take these chains off me now?’ She asked bitterly.
‘No.’
‘What do you like to torture me?’
‘Look what happened, happened, we can’t change things no matter how much I wish we could. Stop doing this to yourself Buffy.’
‘You did this to me!’ Her eyes welled with tears. ‘When I died and they brought me back………. Do you know what that did to me, how long it took for me to feel again, like I used to. I was never truly happy no matter how hard I tried. And then you came back and things changed. After we got over everything in the past and worked things out and…… and….. I fell in love with you it was the happiest I had ever been. I felt like I was in heaven and I cared whether I died or not. You made things better.’ Faith got up and crouched down in front of the blond, her eyes slightly teary. ‘When I almost died again and those demons fucked with my brain and I saw you……….. It felt like I had died, and you had torn me away from heaven again. You abandoned me and left me stranded. I was drowning in the pain you had caused and I was beginning to sink. Spike gave me a drink and it felt like a way out, a way to forget. I know that’s wrong and stupid but it was all I could think of. That first time I got drunk and everything disappeared…………. I just wanted the pain to go away.’
‘Oh God baby I’m so sorry.’ Faith’s hands clutched at Buffy’s legs. ‘Maybe we can just start over.’
‘How many times are we going to do that Faith?’
‘As many times as we gotta to get it right.’ Buffy closed her eyes and grimaced. ‘What’s wrong?’
‘I’m going to be sick.’ Buffy managed between clenched teeth. Faith quickly grabbed a bucket as Buffy leaned over and began retch. She tried to hold the blonds hair back. After a minute Buffy lay down on the bed, her body shacking and sweating as her body began to go through withdrawal. Faith grabbed a washcloth from a bowl of water and wiped the blonds mouth then grabbing another washcloth she wiped the sweat from her forehead as well. She grabbed a hair tie and propped Buffy up, putting her hair back in a ponytail. Then she sat down on the bed and let the blonds head rest on her lap as she continued to use the washcloth to cool Buffy’s skin.
The others began to doubt their decision, or rather Faith’s decision that they just agreed with. Buffy continued to throw up the contents of her stomach, all the while Faith tried to get her to keep water down. The brunette insisted this was necessary, and that Willow doing magic would not help Buffy, the blond needed to go through this. Wood began lurking around the house, stopping by when he found out she wasn’t going to be going to work. Willow told him she wasn’t feeling well enough to see anybody, but he didn’t believe her. He was beginning to get on the brunettes nerves. The man was too concerned with her girlfriends’ life and she didn’t like that at all. Faith herself never left her girlfriends side and had Spike and Wood do the patrolling on the second day as night came upon them.
‘Are you sure she’s going to be ok?’ Willow said in a hushed whisper.
‘Yeah, the fever will break soon.’ Faith answered in an equally hushed voice.
‘She doesn’t look so good.’ They both looked at the blond as she moaned in her sleep.
‘She’s been through a lot the last couple of hours.’ She paused and watched her girlfriends movements on the bed. ‘What time is it?’
‘Nearly 1 in the morning.’
‘You and the gang can get some sleep, I’ll watch her.’
‘Are you sure, you haven’t gotten any sleep at all.’
‘I’m a slayer, I think I can handle it Red.’
‘Even slayers need their sleep.’
‘Not this one. Not when I need to take care of B.’ A pause as silence sunk in.
‘You do love her don’t you?’
‘Yeah, even when I tried not too.’ They stood there a nt int in silence.
‘You’ll wake me up if something happens right?’
‘You’ll be the first to know Red.’ She smiled a little at the witch as the redhead walked up the stairs. Faith sighed, and stood there watching Buffy. The blond was probably having nightmares, but as soon as the fever broke she would be able to sleep peacefully. The sight of the older girl was tearing Faith up. This girl, no woman, meant everything to her and she destroyed her trust. Faith never wanted to let this woman go again and would do anything and give up anything just to be with her forever. She walked back over to the cot and held the girl in her arms, hoping that somehow she could bring a little comfort just by doing this small act. Faith realized Buffy had really changed her. She was thinking of something that she never thought she’d ever think about, though when this girl came into her life it had crossed her mind a couple of times. Right now she was wondering if that thought could become a reality.