I'm Sorry William
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I’m Sorry William 10
My muse decided it was about time we update this story…She is very sorry for the condition she left Spike in.….;) Az
I’m Sorry William 10
“I*NOT*NOT* giving up on him Giles. I am not. I refuse to. He’d never give up if it was me…”
They were so engrossed in the Vampire in her room and the conversation they were having that none of them heard the doorbell ring.
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“She’s got to be here…where else would she go? Try the doorbell again.” Riley said softly.
Still no answer. Riley lifted his fist and pounded on the door. Still nothing.
“Keep trying…maybe they can’t hear it.”
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“Is that someone knocking on the door?” Giles questioned. He was met by blank stares from everyone in the room.
Moments later they all heard it. It sounded like someone was trying to break down the door. “Giles…could you…I don’t want to leave him…”
“Yes…I’m on my way.” He sprinted for the door.
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“I hear someone coming.”
“Riley?” Giles gasped when he opened the door. “Conspiracy indeed.”
“Where is she Giles?”
“Upstairs in her room…” He held the door wider and stepped back to allow him entrance.
Riley walked through the door followed by his wife Sam and another man and woman. “I need to see her…”
“She’s kind of busy at the moment…”
“I know…Spike’s chip is malfunctioning. I brought Dr. Angleman with me. He did the original operation when Spike was just hostile 17.”
“Forgive me…but why did you bring him here?”
“That’s why I need to see Buffy…she needs to make the decision…”
“What decision?”
“It’s up to her Giles…and I’d rather tall her first.”
“I’ll go and get her.”
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“Buffy…Riley’s here…”
“He’s here?” She glanced back at Spike. He was lying perfectly still, not a muscle twitched, no breathing. Nothing. “I told you. Government conspiracy.”
“He wants to talk to you…seems you have a decision to make. He brought the doctor who originally installed his chip.”
Buffy took of at a run.
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“Riley?” She questioned as she reached the bottom of the stairs.
“I got your message. I came to help.”
“There was no floral shop?”
“Nope. But we have to be careful…you know that.”
“Yeah…I do. It was just kind of weird…”
“I’m sorry…I should have told you about that….anyway…this is Doctor Angleman and his top nurse Nadine…I brought them here to help.”
“What’s he going to do?” She asked taking a quick curious look at the doctor.
“That’s up to you…if you want Spike’s chip removed…or if you want him to replace it…”
“Take it out.” She growled. “It’s killing him.”
“Are you sure?” Riley asked.
“I’m in love with him…He’s a good man…”
“I know. I trust your judgment Buffy. I know what you have done to save the world, the sacrifices you have made…all of them…and I know no matter how much you love him you will do what you need to do.”
“Thank you Riley.”
“You’re welcome…We uh…we don’t have much time…we need to transport him…”
“No. We do not have time to move him. He’s…he’s in serious pain…I can feel it…” She said softly tears welling up in her eyes. She willed them not to fall. “I’ll just get some sheets of plastic…I’m sure we have some from when we painted…You can do it in my room…He’s there now…”
“I’ll just go get my stuff from the car…” Dr. Angleman said softly.
“Thank you doctor. Thank you for helping me…”
He nodded and made his way out of the house.
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“How much longer is it going to be?” Buffy was staring out the living room window watching the sun set slowly behind the houses on the other side of the street.
“I’m sure it won’t be much longer…” Riley consoled her.
She turned her tear stained face to him. “I’m sorry Riley…for what happened between us…”
“So am I, but we’re both happy now…I just wish I didn’t huru…I u…I wanted things you couldn’t give me…”
Buffy felt a fresh wave of tears starting. “I…”
“It’s not your fault. I wanted someone who needed me. You didn’t and I couldn’t handle it. You have incomparable strength; you were too much woman for me. Spike…from what I’ve heard…from Dawn, Willow…hell even Giles…He’s perfect for you. He pushes you to do your best, he makes you want to live…”
“They said that?” She asked incredulously.
“They said you’d die for him.”
She nodded. “I really would. He would do the same for me. It took me so long to realize it…cause I thought I wanted normal.”
“Buffy and normal are un-mixy things…you should know that by now…” He joked.
“Yeah…I just…I think I didn’t want to see it because…you know evil soulless demon. But he’s not, he’s really not like that anymore. I was afraid of what everyone would say, it didn’t matter what I thought…until he made me realize that it was too late…I was already in love with him.”
“I know. When we came down here to track that demon…I realized it Buffy…I knew that he was in love with you…and I could see you had feelings for him too…I’m glad you’ve found someone who is your equal.”
“So am I. Thanks for this talk Riley. It’s really made me feel better about the way we left things. When you came here before…it felt like you were trying to throw your great life in my face…now I know it wasn’t like that.”
“No. It really wasn’t…I’m sorry if I gave you that impression…”
“You didn’t though…I just…it was my own fault…”
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“Riley told me what you guys said. Thank you. It means a lot to know that you accept that we love each other.”
“We just want you to be happy. Spike…he does that for you…”
“Oh god. It’s done…” Buffy closed her eyes and took a deep breath. “I can feel him….It’s really weak…but it’s there…I haven’t felt him in so long…”
“Go on then…go and see him…”
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“How did it go?” She almost jumped on the poor Doctor as he shut the bedroom door behind himself.
“It was a success. I managed to remove it without damaging the surrounding tissue…now all that’s left is to wait for him to regain consciousness.”
“Are you sure he’s going to be ok?” She looked at him fearfully.
“He should wake up in the next few days. Here is my card. Call me if there are any problems, we are staying at a nearby hotel for a while…just incase you need anything…I’ve left my equipment set up…just incase we have to…operate again…”
“Thank you…can I go and see him?”
“Yes…he may be quite aggressive when he wakes up…they’re usually really aggressive after we put the chip in…I’ve never taken one out but I’d imagine it’s much the same…”
Buffy nodded and slipped past him into her room.
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“Bye and thank you again…I don’t know what we would have done without your help.”
“I’ll drop by tomorrow to check on everything…is that OK?” Dr. Angleman asked.
“That would bee…” e…” Giles smiled. After seeing them off he made his way into the living room where Willow and Tara were waiting.
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Buffy shut the door softly and just stared at her vampire. She was painfully aware that he still hadn’t moved on his own. He had a bandage around his head and looked so pale he was almost the same color
She walked towards the bed and climbed in beside him. She drew the sheet up over them both and curled into his side. She rested her head against the side of his neck and kissed him softly where it met his shoulder. “Get better baby. I need you.” She said softly.
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They were startled by a knock at the door. “Who in the world could that be?” Giles asked himself getting to his feet.
“Where is he?” The vampire questioned.
“Who?” Giles asked baffled by the sight in front of him.
“Spike.”
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She closed her eyes and sighed softly. She was awoken a short time later by a soft tapping at the door. She didn’t answer right away; she was more concerned with the fact that the place where Spike had marked her was burning, begging to have his fangs buried into it again. She moaned softly at the sensations her body was producing.
There was more tapping at the door, insistent, impatient tapping.
“Who is it?” She called out, sitting up slightly but still not recognizing the feeling in the middle of her Spine. That tingle that signaled a certain vampire.
Suddenly she heard Spike growl. It was faint, but it had positively come from him. She felt it where their bodies touched, felt it deep in the marrow of her bones. “Spike?” She turned to him, half leaning over him, her head close to his. She watched fascinated as his features shifted and his demon mask took over. “Spike?” She called again, momentarily forgetting there was someone at her door.
He inhaled softly and let out another low growl, turning his face towards her slightly he purred for a second. Then he moved his head back to it’s original position and growled quietly once more.
“Spike? Are you ok? Can you hear me?” She could feel him tensing, as if he were getting ready for a fight. Her heart started pounding a little harder. ‘I don’t want to have to hurt him. He’s already been through so much.’
“Buffy? Buffy…is he in there with you? I can feel him…I can feel his pain…and his anger…”
“Angel…” It was barley a whisper. She was still staring at Spike, staring at his demon features, feeling his body tense against hers. ‘Oh god. What’s he doing here?’
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TBC…was it worth the wait?
I’m Sorry William 10
“I*NOT*NOT* giving up on him Giles. I am not. I refuse to. He’d never give up if it was me…”
They were so engrossed in the Vampire in her room and the conversation they were having that none of them heard the doorbell ring.
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“She’s got to be here…where else would she go? Try the doorbell again.” Riley said softly.
Still no answer. Riley lifted his fist and pounded on the door. Still nothing.
“Keep trying…maybe they can’t hear it.”
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“Is that someone knocking on the door?” Giles questioned. He was met by blank stares from everyone in the room.
Moments later they all heard it. It sounded like someone was trying to break down the door. “Giles…could you…I don’t want to leave him…”
“Yes…I’m on my way.” He sprinted for the door.
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“I hear someone coming.”
“Riley?” Giles gasped when he opened the door. “Conspiracy indeed.”
“Where is she Giles?”
“Upstairs in her room…” He held the door wider and stepped back to allow him entrance.
Riley walked through the door followed by his wife Sam and another man and woman. “I need to see her…”
“She’s kind of busy at the moment…”
“I know…Spike’s chip is malfunctioning. I brought Dr. Angleman with me. He did the original operation when Spike was just hostile 17.”
“Forgive me…but why did you bring him here?”
“That’s why I need to see Buffy…she needs to make the decision…”
“What decision?”
“It’s up to her Giles…and I’d rather tall her first.”
“I’ll go and get her.”
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“Buffy…Riley’s here…”
“He’s here?” She glanced back at Spike. He was lying perfectly still, not a muscle twitched, no breathing. Nothing. “I told you. Government conspiracy.”
“He wants to talk to you…seems you have a decision to make. He brought the doctor who originally installed his chip.”
Buffy took of at a run.
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“Riley?” She questioned as she reached the bottom of the stairs.
“I got your message. I came to help.”
“There was no floral shop?”
“Nope. But we have to be careful…you know that.”
“Yeah…I do. It was just kind of weird…”
“I’m sorry…I should have told you about that….anyway…this is Doctor Angleman and his top nurse Nadine…I brought them here to help.”
“What’s he going to do?” She asked taking a quick curious look at the doctor.
“That’s up to you…if you want Spike’s chip removed…or if you want him to replace it…”
“Take it out.” She growled. “It’s killing him.”
“Are you sure?” Riley asked.
“I’m in love with him…He’s a good man…”
“I know. I trust your judgment Buffy. I know what you have done to save the world, the sacrifices you have made…all of them…and I know no matter how much you love him you will do what you need to do.”
“Thank you Riley.”
“You’re welcome…We uh…we don’t have much time…we need to transport him…”
“No. We do not have time to move him. He’s…he’s in serious pain…I can feel it…” She said softly tears welling up in her eyes. She willed them not to fall. “I’ll just get some sheets of plastic…I’m sure we have some from when we painted…You can do it in my room…He’s there now…”
“I’ll just go get my stuff from the car…” Dr. Angleman said softly.
“Thank you doctor. Thank you for helping me…”
He nodded and made his way out of the house.
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“How much longer is it going to be?” Buffy was staring out the living room window watching the sun set slowly behind the houses on the other side of the street.
“I’m sure it won’t be much longer…” Riley consoled her.
She turned her tear stained face to him. “I’m sorry Riley…for what happened between us…”
“So am I, but we’re both happy now…I just wish I didn’t huru…I u…I wanted things you couldn’t give me…”
Buffy felt a fresh wave of tears starting. “I…”
“It’s not your fault. I wanted someone who needed me. You didn’t and I couldn’t handle it. You have incomparable strength; you were too much woman for me. Spike…from what I’ve heard…from Dawn, Willow…hell even Giles…He’s perfect for you. He pushes you to do your best, he makes you want to live…”
“They said that?” She asked incredulously.
“They said you’d die for him.”
She nodded. “I really would. He would do the same for me. It took me so long to realize it…cause I thought I wanted normal.”
“Buffy and normal are un-mixy things…you should know that by now…” He joked.
“Yeah…I just…I think I didn’t want to see it because…you know evil soulless demon. But he’s not, he’s really not like that anymore. I was afraid of what everyone would say, it didn’t matter what I thought…until he made me realize that it was too late…I was already in love with him.”
“I know. When we came down here to track that demon…I realized it Buffy…I knew that he was in love with you…and I could see you had feelings for him too…I’m glad you’ve found someone who is your equal.”
“So am I. Thanks for this talk Riley. It’s really made me feel better about the way we left things. When you came here before…it felt like you were trying to throw your great life in my face…now I know it wasn’t like that.”
“No. It really wasn’t…I’m sorry if I gave you that impression…”
“You didn’t though…I just…it was my own fault…”
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“Riley told me what you guys said. Thank you. It means a lot to know that you accept that we love each other.”
“We just want you to be happy. Spike…he does that for you…”
“Oh god. It’s done…” Buffy closed her eyes and took a deep breath. “I can feel him….It’s really weak…but it’s there…I haven’t felt him in so long…”
“Go on then…go and see him…”
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“How did it go?” She almost jumped on the poor Doctor as he shut the bedroom door behind himself.
“It was a success. I managed to remove it without damaging the surrounding tissue…now all that’s left is to wait for him to regain consciousness.”
“Are you sure he’s going to be ok?” She looked at him fearfully.
“He should wake up in the next few days. Here is my card. Call me if there are any problems, we are staying at a nearby hotel for a while…just incase you need anything…I’ve left my equipment set up…just incase we have to…operate again…”
“Thank you…can I go and see him?”
“Yes…he may be quite aggressive when he wakes up…they’re usually really aggressive after we put the chip in…I’ve never taken one out but I’d imagine it’s much the same…”
Buffy nodded and slipped past him into her room.
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“Bye and thank you again…I don’t know what we would have done without your help.”
“I’ll drop by tomorrow to check on everything…is that OK?” Dr. Angleman asked.
“That would bee…” e…” Giles smiled. After seeing them off he made his way into the living room where Willow and Tara were waiting.
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Buffy shut the door softly and just stared at her vampire. She was painfully aware that he still hadn’t moved on his own. He had a bandage around his head and looked so pale he was almost the same color
She walked towards the bed and climbed in beside him. She drew the sheet up over them both and curled into his side. She rested her head against the side of his neck and kissed him softly where it met his shoulder. “Get better baby. I need you.” She said softly.
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They were startled by a knock at the door. “Who in the world could that be?” Giles asked himself getting to his feet.
“Where is he?” The vampire questioned.
“Who?” Giles asked baffled by the sight in front of him.
“Spike.”
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She closed her eyes and sighed softly. She was awoken a short time later by a soft tapping at the door. She didn’t answer right away; she was more concerned with the fact that the place where Spike had marked her was burning, begging to have his fangs buried into it again. She moaned softly at the sensations her body was producing.
There was more tapping at the door, insistent, impatient tapping.
“Who is it?” She called out, sitting up slightly but still not recognizing the feeling in the middle of her Spine. That tingle that signaled a certain vampire.
Suddenly she heard Spike growl. It was faint, but it had positively come from him. She felt it where their bodies touched, felt it deep in the marrow of her bones. “Spike?” She turned to him, half leaning over him, her head close to his. She watched fascinated as his features shifted and his demon mask took over. “Spike?” She called again, momentarily forgetting there was someone at her door.
He inhaled softly and let out another low growl, turning his face towards her slightly he purred for a second. Then he moved his head back to it’s original position and growled quietly once more.
“Spike? Are you ok? Can you hear me?” She could feel him tensing, as if he were getting ready for a fight. Her heart started pounding a little harder. ‘I don’t want to have to hurt him. He’s already been through so much.’
“Buffy? Buffy…is he in there with you? I can feel him…I can feel his pain…and his anger…”
“Angel…” It was barley a whisper. She was still staring at Spike, staring at his demon features, feeling his body tense against hers. ‘Oh god. What’s he doing here?’
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TBC…was it worth the wait?