Once and Again

Chapter Nineteen: Love Lessons (pt. 2)

Angel shook his head and turned, walking off the deck towards the ocean. He had stood out on the porch for over ten minutes watching while Spike and Ravyn practically swallowed each others faces.

Walking to the waters edge, Angel stood there, staring out across the ocean. His demon as raging. Being that close to Ravyn as he had been the previous night and not taking advantage of the situation had his inner beast clawing to the surface. The only thing stopping him from marching in there and taking what he wanted......was his nagging soul.

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Ravyn finally pulled herself away from Spike's mouth slightly, smiling as she looked at him.

"Good thing we don't need to breath. " she said, panting for unneeded air against his lips, "We'd both be dead right now."

Spike, continued to kiss and bite softly at her lips as she spoke, wanting more of her. Kissing a trail across her face, he moved to her neck.

"Spike...." Ravyn moaned as he licked at her neck, making his way to her ear.

"You need to stop that before we give Angel a show." she told him breathlessly, closing her eyes as her desire for him increased.

"Poof hasn't had a shag in so long, he'd probably wouldn't even know what we were doing." Spike told her as he sucked on her ear.

Spike stopped suddenly and Ravyn rested her head on his shoulder, nuzzling her face in his neck. "Your brain finally catch up with your...other parts?" she asked chuckling softly.

"Yeah...just remembered neither one of us can walk and I'd have to kill peaches if he saw you naked."

Ravyn giggled softly at his comment as she thought about it....then her eyes flew open wide. *Oh My God!!* she screamed in her head. *Angel Saw Me Naked!!* she thought to herself as she remembered Angel trying to wake her for a bath. She was clean now which meant only one thing.....Angel had bathed her.

Spike felt Ravyn's body tense up and leaned his head to the side trying to see her face.

"What's wrong?"

Ravyn kept her face buried. One look of her face and she was sure Spike would know. "Nothishe she said quickly.

"Then what's with the rigamortis routine? You're stiff as a board."

Ravyn tried to relax, but was having difficulty as flashes of last night came back to her. She remembered having her shirt removed and the feeling of the water. She clenched her eyes shut tightly. She had no idea what happened. All she knew was that she was clean and she didn't bathe herself.

"Ravyn"

"Yeah" she said, still hiding her face.

"Look up 'ere." Spike said trying to move her.

Ravyn took a deep breath and tried to wipe the emotions she was feeling off her face before slowly lifting her head. Smiling best she could, she looked at Spike.

"What's wrong?" he asked her again, his eyes firmly locked on hers.

*God he's going to know I'm lying.* she thought as she looked at him. She smiled slightly as she looked down at her leg.

"Nothing...just had a little pain in my leg." she lied, rubbing her hand across her bandage.

Spike looked at her hard as she played with the bandage that covered the gash on her leg. She looked almost 'scared' about something.

"Right" he said as casually as he could. He could tell it was more than just a pain. There was a hint of 'something' in her eyes.

Spike and Ravyn both looked up when Angel walked back in. Ravyn quickly looked back down to her leg, unable to look at him knowing.

"Hey...you about ready for something to eat?" Angel asked Ravyn as he approached the couple.

"Sure" Ravyn said, never looking up at him.

Angel stared at her for a few seconds before turning and walking into the kitchen.

Ravyn continued to pick at her bandage, pulling the edges of the tape up. She could feel Spike's eyes on her again and she turned to him and smiled nervously as he looked at her.

"Here you go." Angel said handing her a mug.

"Thanks" she said, not looking up at him and gulped her dinner down quickly as Angel sat down on the coffee table.

"Lets check these bandages." Angel said picking up Ravyn's foot.

Spike watched her as she sat there. She wasn't looking at Angel or at what he was doing. Glancing over at Angel, he noticed Angel kept glancing up at Ravyn. They were both acting....weird.

"Let's see." Spike said as Angel unwrapped Ravyn's foot.

Ravyn brought her foot up, making a small groaning noise as she and Spike looked at the bottom of her foot. "How did you manage to do this?"

Spike asked as he held her foot, looking at the large cuts that were there.

"Guess out on the hill." Ravyn said quietly. "Don't really remember being cut though."

"Looks much better today than it did last night." Angel said as Ravyn put her foot back down. "Good thing you were out when I cleaned them, not sure how well you would have handled the pain. Had trouble stopping the bleeding." he added quietly as he rewrapped her foot.

Spike looked hard at Angel as the pieces started falling into place. He glanced up at Ravyn who 'still' wasn't making eye contact with Angel.

"Got pretty messed up on that hill then?" Spike asked smiling a little as he looked at n. n.

"Not to bad...just dirty." she replied finally looking over at him.

"You were both a mess." Angel said as he finished up with Ravyn's foot. "Hard to tell who was actually hurt when I got here, with all the blood covering you to."

Spike looked over at Angel as he stood and walked over to the chair. He glared at him hard as he sat down. Spike knew now why Ravyn wouldn't look at Angel. She had been acting weird and been really quiet ever since his 'Angel seeing her naked' remark. He and Ravyn were both clean...which meant only one thing...Angel had bathed them.

"Alright poof....get us back in the bedroom. Thelys lys in there." Spike said knowing if he had to sit there and look at Angel one more minute, broke leg or not, he was gonna kill him.

Angel stood and walked over to the sofa. Spike felt Ravyn stiffen up as Angel leaned down to pick her up.

"I'm sure I can walk. Doesn't hurt that bad." Ravyn said quietly as Angel lifted her.

"You really should stay off of these feet for a few days. Give them time to heal properly." Angel said as he turned and started for the hall.

Spike clenched his jaw tightly as Ravyn wrapped her arm around Angel's neck as they turned the corner. He wasn't losing another girl to his grand-sire. He'd 'Kill' Angel before he let that happen. He was tired of losing out to him and he wasn't gonna let it happen again.

"Let's go" Angel said a few minutes later when he came back into the living room.

"Get a good look?" Spike asked sarcastically as Angel approached the sofa.

"Look at what?" Angel asked him confused by Spike's question. He could see the fierce look on Spike's face and soon realize exactly what he was talking about. "Don't go getting all worked up over nothing Spike. I couldn't very well put you two in bed the way you looked."

The longer Spike looked at Angel and his casual response to the subject, the angrier he becaSwinSwinging his legs over the edge of the sofa, he stood on his own with the aid of the sofa arm.

"Hope you enjoyed yourself. Next time will kill you." Spike told him, hatred filling his eyes and voice as he stared at Angel. "Don't ever touch her again."

Angel smiled slightly before he walked over to Spike. "Don't threaten me Spike. You've never been able to back that mouth of yours up." he said, grabbing Spike's arm roughly, helping him towards the bedroom.

Spike was breathing heavily and clenching his jaw as he hobbled down the hall. The more he thought about it...the more he wanted to just stake Angel and not worry with him anymore.

"What in the world were you two doing in there?" Ravyn asked as Spike and Angel finally came through the door.

"Just having a little talk." Angel said as he finally got Spike seated on the bed.

Spike glared up at Angel as he smiled down at him. Ravyn saw the intense look on Spike's face and the way Angel was smiling back at him and knew...they had 'talked' about the 'naked' business.

"Well, I'll be in the other room if you need anything." Angel said smiling as he looked over at Ravyn before turning to leave.

"Shut the door!" Spike yelled loudly, causing Ravyn to look at him hard. He was clenching his jaw tightly and she knew she needed to act quick.

"So...what do you want to watch?" she asked smiling, trying to get his mind on something else.

"Don't care." Spike replied, still staring at the door.

Ravyn grabbed the remote and flipped the TV on. She started scanning through the channels, glancing over at Spike ever so often as he still hadn't taken his eyes off the door.

"I thought you wanted to watch TV?" she asked, as she looked back over at him.

Spike finally turned his head and looked at her. He gave her a little smile before bringing his legs up on the bed. "I do." he said, propping his pillows up and leaning back. "Now come 'ere and give me that remote." he added, holding his arm out waiting for her to move closer to him.

Ravyn smiled big as she scooted over to him, laying her head on his shoulder. "The remotes mine." she said, holding it as far away from him as possible. "Your choice in quality television programming is sorely lacking in taste." she said with a smile.

"Not my fault they gave me the scrambled channels for free." Spike said grinning, as he tightened his arm around her.

"No, but just because you get free cable porn doesn't mean you have to watch it." she said giggling.

"Yeah well, most porn could be classified as comedy." Spike told her grinning down at her. "You've seen it, bad music, back lighting..." "Bad boob jobs....don't remind me." Ravyn said smiling as she flipped through the channels.

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Angel sat on the sofa, feet propped up on the coffee table, catching bits and pieces of Spike and Ravyn's conversation. He knew he needed to get out of there, but jcoulcouldn't bring himself to leave. He knew Dawn would come over if asked but...he 'wanted' to stay.

Laying his head back, he closed his eyes. He smiled big as he remembered Spike's threat. Spike was worried, he wouldn't have been so defensive if he wasn't. Maybe his and Ravyn's relationship wasn't as strong as they made it out to be. He knew Ravyn loved Spike, but vampires weren't monogamous creatures by nature. Giving the opportunity and a chance, he was almost sure he could get her to look the other way...towards him.

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Spike was hardly even paying attention to the movie Ravyn had flipped the TV to. His mind was still on Angel. He was sure Angel wouldn't do anything, not with that goodie two shoes soul of his....but one never knew. Never stopped him from trying.

Angel had tried his best to come in-between him and Buffy when he found out about them so, why would now be any different. Angel always wanted what Spike had. The more he thought about it, he was sure it was just to prove he could take it from him. He always did.....no matter what it was.

Spike looked down at Ravyn as she lay there, her head resting on his stomach. He ran his hands through her hair as he looked at her. Ravyn loved him, no way she would leave him for Angel....or would she?

"I love you" Spike said quietly, feeling a little insecure all of a sudden.

"Love you too." Ravyn said, never lifting her head.

Spike just stared at her. He knew she did...but Angel always had a way of getting to the people he loved. "How much?"

Ravyn lifted her head and looked up at him. She could see the questioning look on faceface and knew he was worried. She smiled as she sat up and crawled up the bed. "More than anything else in the world." she said, leaning down and giving him a small kiss.

Spike smiled up at her as she pulled away from him. His mind flicked to Angel and his smile got bigger. "Prove it." he said, grabbing her leg and pulling it over him so she was straddling him.

Ravyn smiled down at him "Sure you can take it....you being hurt and all."

"Everything's not hurt." Spike said as he grabbed her hips and thrust his upwards into her best he could.

Ravyn's smile increased as she looked at him. "Well, really glad to hear that. " she said leaning down. "Hate to think you broke something......important." she added, licking his lips.

Spike lifted his head slightly, catching her tongue between his lips and sucking it into his mouth. Ravyn rocked her hips against him slowly as he sucked on her tongue, stroking it with his own every so often.

Spike reached over, grabbing the remote and flipped the TV off, before throwing the remote back down. He smiled to himself as Ravyn kissed her way to his neck. *Might as well let the poof hear what he's never gonna get* he thought with a slight grin.

Ravyn knew the minute Spike turned off the TV 'why' he had. She knew the 'Spike/Angel' situation had always been bad and the tension in the room earlier between the two of them had been intense. If Spike needed to prove something to Angel to feel good about himself....then she'd do her best to see that he got it.

"You sure you feel up to this?" she asked, nibbling on his ear.

"Does 'that' feel like I'm up for it?" Spike asked, raising his hips up best he could, pressing his growing erection into her.

"Yeah" Ravyn said quietly, once again rocking her hips against him.

Ravyn sat up, grabbing the hem of her night shirt and pulled it up over her head. Spike smiled as he looked up at her. He reached a hand up and pushed her hair that had fallen over her shoulder away so he could see all of her.

Spike lay there looking at her, running a hand up her body as he did. He looked at the way her hips curved, her small waist and her breast. Not small but not huge either. Just right. "Do you even know how beautiful you are?" Spike asked her softly as he looked back up at her.

Ravyn smiled at him as he ran a hand over her chest. "Haven't seen myself in over seventy years. Don't much remember what I look like."

Spike sat up, wrapping one arm around her as he brought the other one up and pushed her hair away from her face. "You're perfect." he whispered to her smiling, before kissing her softly.

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Angel opened his eyes as he realized how quiet the house was. He sat up and looked towards the hall. The TV was off. He listened hard, trying to see if he could catch any sound coming down from the hall and heard nothing. *Must have went to bed* he thought to himself. Glancing over at the clock he realized how close to sunrise it was and stood, making his way to the spare bedroom. Shutting the door, he walked to the bed, sitting down and removing his shoes.

Angel stood and removed his clothing. He crawled into bed and smiled as Ravyn's scent once again surrounded him.

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Ravyn pulled Spike's shorts off before pulling her panties off and smiled as Spike stared at her. *If he wants to give Angel a show...then lets give him one* she thought as she once again straddled his hips.

Reaching down, she grabbed his shaft, stroking him a few times as she positioned him at her opening. Inserting him just barely, she clamped her muscles down as tight as she could as she slid down onto him.

"Ahhhhh!" Spike yelled loudly, throwing his head back and clenching his eyes shut as Ravyn's already tight entrance squeezed him more than usual.

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Angel looked up and turned his head to the wall as he heard Spike yell. He waited, just listening and let his head fall back into the pillow when he heard Spike moan.

"no, no, no, no..." Angel chanted quietly into his pillow. "Please don't let them be having sex."

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Ravyn smiled as she sat there, unmoving, looking at Spike. His eyes were still clamped shut and he was breathing heavily as he held her hips still.

Spike finally opened his eyes and looked up at Ravyn as she sat there smiling at him. "Bloody Hell woman...give a guy some warning before you do that." he said, trying to calm his unneeded breath. "This little shag fest just about came to a gushing finale."

"Not gonna whimp out on me that quick are ya?" she asked as she slowly rose back up.

Spike groaned as she squeezed him again as she slowly slid back down. "You keep that up and I will."

"I don't know, I kinda liked hearing you yell." she said grinning. "I see now why you like to hear me scream."

Spike smiled up at her as he guided her hips into a faster pace. "Guess we'll see who screams the loudest then..eh" he said, thrusting his hips up as she came down.

Ravyn gasped loudly and shut her eyes as he filled her completely. She sat up straight and slowly rocked her hips as the feel of him inside of her sent shock waves through her body. Leaning back slightly, she reached around, holding onto this legs as she quickened her pace.

Spike watched her as she threw her head back. Her hair was tickling his thighs and he clinched his jaw when she tightened her muscles around him again and started moaning softly. She was rocking fast and getting faster. He smiled as she lifted her head and looked down at him. She was still bracing herself by holding onto his legs. Her back was arched slightly and she had her eyes locked firmly with his. He wasn't sure what was more pleasurable, the way he felt inside of her or the way she looked as she rode him. The way her body flowed over his was like a dance, an erotic, sensual dance performed just for him.

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Angel tossed and turned in his bed as the moans coming from the next room became louder. Watching them on the dance floor had been nothing compared to 'hearing' it.

Folding his pillow over his head, Angel tried to drown out the sound. He smiled against the pillow as Spike and Ravyn's soft moaning was muffled enough that he barely heard them. Humming to himself, completely blocked it out....that is until Ravyn screamed out Spike's name.

Angel sat straight up as she continued to scream and he wondered briefly is Spike were killing her until he heard Spike himself growl loudly and yell.

He closed his eyes and waited. Slowly the sounds coming from the next room died down to nothing. All was quiet.

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Ravyn lay bonelessly on top of Spike breathing heavily. She smiled as Spike squeezed her tight. "Think we might have disturbed our house guest with all that screaming." she said smiling, lifting her head so she could see him. The satisfied smile on his face thrilled her as much as the sex had.

"Good. Maybe he'll leave." Spike told her as he reached up, pushing her hair away.

Ravyn leaned down, giving him a small kiss before sitting up and unlinking their bodies.

"Where do you think you're going?" Spike asked as he grabbed her before she could get completely off of him. "I'm not through with you yet."

Ravyn smiled down at him, then gasped lightly as he grabbed her hips and jerked her forward, up his body. Spike put his arms under her legs, lifting her as he moved her the rest of the way up.

"We're just getting started." he said as he trailed kisses up to thigh, moving towards her sex.

Ravyn closed her eyes as she felt his tongue on her and she grabbed onto the headboard to hold herself up. Her breathing increased as Spike licked and sucked at her tender flesh. She knew this wouldn't last long....he was just to good at it.

She smiled and moaned softly as he explored the recesses of her folds. The things he could do with his tongue sent chills throughout her entire body as the anticipation of what was to come had her flying high.

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Angel popped one eye open as he heard Ravyn moan. *Not Again!* he yelled in his head. Lifting his head he listened as she started moaning more loudly.

("oh god Spike...don't stop")..Angel heard her say breathlessly. His head once again hit the pillow and he groaned loudly.

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Ravyn reached a hand down, holding onto Spike's head as she ground herself against him. She was panting for air and all coherent thoughts were gone. The only thing she was aware of was the intense pleasure coursing through her body.

Spike was glad he didn't need to breath with the way Ravyn was undulating against his face. His nose was buried in her as he sucked at her flesh. He knew she loved this and it 'always' made her go over hard. He smiled to himself 'knowing' she'd scream loud enough for half of LA to hear her. A real smile played on his lips as he continued to lick at her, wondering if Angel was enjoying the soundtrack.

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Angel threw the sheet back quickly as Ravyn's moans got louder. Standing quickly he walked to the door and flung it open and stepped out into the hall.

He knew 'exactly' what they were doing. He couldn't lay there and listen to Ravyn's desperate demands of Spike any longer.

Walking to the front door, he was almost home free when Ravyn climaxed, screaming loud enough to wake the dead.

Opening the door quickly, he ran outside and slammed the door hard behind him, still unable to escape the noise.

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Ravyn laid her head against the wall as her body trembled. She was breathing heavily as Spike ran his hands up and down her back.

Hearing the front door slam shut had thrilled Spike just as much as Ravyn's screams had. He was happy. He had pissed off 'the broody one'. He looked up at Ravyn, her breast were heaving up and down as she tried to calm her unnecessary breathing. Her head aainsainst the wall and her mouth was open slightly. He smiled as she opened her eyes.

"Proud of yourself?" Ravyn asked him breathlessly as she looked down at Spike.

"Very" he replied grinning wildly.

Ravyn smiled and shut her eyes again, taking a few deep breathes before she opened her eyes back up and sat up straight. She swung her leg over Spike and scooted down the bed and laid down beside him. "I can't feel my legs." she said smiling as she laid her head on Spike's shoulder.

Spike chuckled at her as he wrapped his arms around her and placed a kiss on her head.

"You know...if I weren't so greedy and wanted you all to myself, we could pimp you out. We'd be millionaires in no time." she said laughing lightly.

Spike laughed at her. "You're crazy."

"No I'm not....women would line up for that." she told him smiling.

"I'd probably have to kill them all afterwards....."

"Well, I probably wouldn't enjoy it as much as I do with you....."

"Probably?" Ravyn asked grinning as she looked up at him.

Spike smiled as she looked up at him a little wide eyed.

"You better 'NOT' enjoy it with anyone else at all." Ravyn told him, trying to look mad.

"Okay...I 'wouldn't' enjoy it at all." Spike said grinning.

"That's better." Ravyn said, leaning down and kissing his chest. "Your turn to scream." she told him as she licked at one of his nipples.

Spike smiled as she ran her hand down and grabbed him, stroking him slowly. "Give it you best shot pet." he told her as she kissed her way down his body.

~*~*~*~ Angel laid on the deck lounger for the next hour and a half listening to the noises coming from inside the house. They weren't nearly as loud out there as they were inside, but he could still hear them. He didn't know how much longer they were going to keep at it but the sun was fast approaching and he knew he'd have to go back inside soon.

He tried to think of anything other than the sound of Ravyn's voice. Her screams of ecstasy were driving him insane. The thoughts of Spike being the one to cause them....that was driving him mad.

Angel sighed heavily as the suns coming signalled it's arrival. Reluctantly standing he re-entered the house laying on the sofa. The further away from the bedroom the better.

He growled loudly as he lay his head down, frustrated at the situation as Spike yelled. He was 'definitely' leaving at sunset!

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Angel lay staring at the ceiling. He was breathing heavily as his anger was starting to consume him. Another scream was heard and he jumped off the couch, stomping down the hall...his yellow eyes blazing with hatred as he stopped in front of Spike and Ravyn's door. Balling his fist up, he pounded on the door violently.

"I've Listened To You Two For The Last Three Hours Scream And Moan! Go To Sleep Or I'm Coming In There And Staking Both Of You!!"

Angel screamed as loud as he could, growling in frustration, having heard them long enough.

Ravyn turned her head and looked at the door when Angel's hysterical yelling came from the other side. She felt Spike smile against her neck and chuckle lightly and knew 'that' was what he was waiting on.

She smiled as she looked back down at him. "Guess we can't play anymore." she said grinning.

"Guess not." Spike said, giving her a quick kiss before he reached down grabbing the sheet. Pulling it up over them, he smiled big.

Ravyn giggled lightly as she looked at him. "You really are evil, aren't you?"

"What?...Nothing wrong with shagging my girl in my own house. Not my fault the poof is 'ere."

"Uh huh...."

Spike looked down at Ravyn, his smile fading away as he scooted down further and wrapped his arms around her. "Angel doesn't get the concept of 'm. He. He's always taken what ever he wanted...especially when I had it. Just wanted to let him know he wasn't gonna win this time...he's not taking you away from me."

"And what makes you think I'd even go with him if he tried?" Ravyn asked, the concerned, worried look once again returning to Spike's face.

Spike just looked at her, never replying.

"I love you Spike. There's not anything 'Anyone" can ever say or do to change that. I'm yours...Forever. Even if you decide in fifty years that you don't want me anymore...I'll still be yours."

Spike finally smiled. "I'll always want you."

Ravyn wrapped her arm around Spike as she lay her head on his shoulder. She'd do anything to reassure him of his place in her heart.....she just wasn't sure 'what' it was he needed.

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"Angel Investigns..ns...How may I help you?" Dawn said happily into the phones receiver.

"Someone's in a chipper mood." Ravyn said smiling.

Dawn just giggled in response, almost bouncing in her chair.

"I take it 'Dylan' is responsible for bringing out this new giggly girl?"

"Yeah" Dawn said still smiling. "He is so.....god, there's not even a word for it."

Ravyn leaned up against the Kitchen counter, wincing slightly as her feet were aching. "So...what are you doing tonight?"

"Nothing. Dylan had some stuff to do, so, I'm a loner tonight."

"Good, come over....we have lots to talk about. "

"I can do that."

"Great. I'll see you this evening then." Ravyn told her. "Oh, one more thing...see if you can round up a pair of crutches."

"Crutches...what in the world for?"

"Spike. He broke his leg."

"Oh my god! What happened?"

"Long story. I'll tell you all about it when you get here."

"Okay...you need anything else?"

"No....just my friend and her good listening ear." Ravyn said smiling.

"Well...friend I am and listening I'm got. It. I'll see you later."

"Okay Dawn..Bye"

"Bye"

Ravyn held onto the counter as she turned and took a painful step and hung the phone back up. She looked over at the refrigerator then over to the microwave. It wasn't that far between the two, but standing was painful enough...walking was even more so.

Slowly making her way to the fridge, Ravyn openhe dhe door and pulled out a bag of blood. The early morning 'marathon sexcapades' had her famished.

Shutting the door, Ravyn jumped when Angel's voice broke through the silence of the house, startling her.

"What are you doing?" he asked her as she turned her head quickly to look at him.

"Getting something to eat." she replied before she turned and took a slow step towards the microwave.

"I could have gotten that for you. You didn't need to get up."

"How was I suppose to know you were still up. It's 1:00 in the afternoon."

Angel sighed and walked over to the cabinet, removing a mug before taking the blood bag from her hand. He emptied the contents into the mug and placed it in the microwave and turned it on.

"Kind of hard to sleep with all the noise going on in here this morning." Angel said as he turned around her face her.

Ravyn instantly regretted not putting her robe on when Angel turned to look at her.

Angel stared at her as she stood there in nothing put a small pair of black string bikini panties and a tank top. He couldn't take his eyes off of her. He could see right through her shirt as her breast were straining at the thin material exposing her to him.

Ravyn quickly crossed her arms over her chest, which only caused her shirt to rise up, exposing her stomach. She sighed heavily as she looked at Angel. "Stop gawking at me." she said, uncomfortable with the way he was looking at her.

"You're the one walking around haakedaked." Angel said sarcastically. "Didn't want anyone to see you...then you should have put something on."

"Well, if I'd had 'known' you were still up I would have."

Angel let out a small bitter laugh as the microwave beeped. He shook his head before turning and removing the mug. "And who could 'possibly' sleep with the way you two were carrying on all morning?" he said bitterly.

Ravyn glared at him when he snapped at her before taking the mug from him. "What 'goes on' in here really isn't any of your business. You're free to go anytime you want." she said a little more hatefully than she had intended. She looked down for a minute and gave him another glance before turning and heading for the Kitchen entry way. She had never been mean to Angel and felt bad that she had just then.

"Wait." Angel said softly as hacheached out and took her arm, stopping her. "I'm sorry....it's just." Angel sighed heavily as he looked at the back of her head. Walking forward he stepped in front of her and looked down at her. "Ravyn, I like you. More than I should and I just...."

"Don't Angel....."

"No....let me finish." Angel said, interrupting her. "I know you love Spike, but..."

"There is no but." Ravyn said, interrupting him again. "Angel, I know you have feelings for me and I'm flattered. But I 'do' love Spike and I'm not going to do anything to hurt him and more importantly...I'm not goio leo let 'anyone else' do anything to hurt him."

"I never said I was going to hurt him Ravyn. I just think if you would think about it for a minute you'd see. He can't give you everything you need." he told her softly.

"And you can?" she asked, not believing what he was saying.

"I know Spike is alot of fun. He impulsive, acts before he thinks and he's passionate about everything he does, but he can't give you what you need."

"See, that's where you're wrong. He already has. You don't know the first thing about me Angel."

"Yes I do."

"NO.....you don't. You know a scared girl who spent the last thirty years chained to a goddamn wall! You have no idea who I am. I'd venture a guess and say you probably wouldn't like her very much if you did."

"I doubt that" Angel said softly as he looked at her.

Ravyn let her shoulders slump a little as she looked down at the mug in her hand. She never thought Spike's fears were anything but his own over active imagination, but now...she was thinking differently.

Angel reached his hand out, placing a finger under Ravyn's chin, raising her head back up. "He's not who you think he is Ravyn." he told her as he looked at her, rubbing his thumb over her lip lightly.

"Yes he is. He's everything I could have ever asked for. He brave and strong, he's passionate and loving, devoand and caring. He's everything Angel...and he's mine, and most importantly...I'm his.....ALWAYS." she said quietly, pulling her head back from his hand. "Nothing you could ever say will change that. I know the history between you two and I'm here to tell you...this is one girl you 'won't' be taking from him. You're the one who doesn't know him...if you did, then you'd know he was a good man, a man I intend on spending the rest of my existence with."

"Ravyn....if you'd....."

"No Angel.....I'm sorry, I really am, but this conversation is over. Your free to stay and help out as long as you'd like, but no more talk of this. I love Spike and my place is with him for as long as he wants me."

Angel stood watching as Ravyn slowly pulled away from him and made her way out of the Kitchen. He knew he never had a chance with her, but he had to let her know how he felt. Hiding it hurt worse than seeing her with Spike.

~*~*~*~

Spike lay in bed, a smile firmly placed on his face. He had heard every word of Angel and Ravyn's conversation and he 'KNEW' now that he had nothing to worry about. She'd never leave him, no matter what Angel did or said.

He closed his eyes as he heard her approach the door, pulling the sheet up around him as she opened the door and walked in.

Ravyn walked in the bedroom, pushing the door shut behind her. She slowly made her way to the bed and sat down on the edge. Her mind was going in a hundred different directions as she sat there. She had lost her appetite completely and sat the mug on the bedside table and stared at the wall, trying to get a grasp on everything.

Spike opened his eyes and looked at her. Raising up, he slid across the bed and ran his hand down her back, smoothing out her hair as he did. "Everything okay?"

Ravyn turned her head to look at him and smiled. "Yeah...everything's fine now." she said, leaning down and kissing him.

Spike smiled at her when she pulled away from him. "Well, get back in here. Can't sleep if you're not in here with me."

Ravyn smiled big at him and climbed back in bed. She wrapped herself around him as he did the same. "I love you Spike."

Spike placed a kiss on the top of her head and smiled. "I love you too Kitten."