Lust

Thank you so much for the reviews. They gave my muse a happy. Please don’t freak…my muse made me do it…That and I just love some of the dialogue and events that really happened on the show, so I couldn’t resist. My muse is snickering while munching on truffles, and whispering into my ear.

Some things are worth saving

Anya started walking slowly down the street. She was so wrapped up in her thoughts she didn’t notice the two vampire’s following her as she turned the corner.
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Buffy entered the house on cloud nine. She shut the door behind herself and sighed contentedly.

Buffy leaned back against the door and smiled to herself. ~ He loves me so much. ~ She smiled to herself and tucked a stray hair behind her ear.

Buffy closed her eyes and pictured his intense gaze. Boring into her. ~ My Spike. ~

“How was your night?” Buffy jumped at the sound of her mother’s voice.

“Oh…mom…you scared me. I had a good night.” Buffy said casually strolling past her mother to flop bonelessly on the couch. ~ Yeah. Real good night. ~ She smiled to her self rubbing her tingling lips.

“You look pretty happy.” Joyce said smiling at her daughter.

“I am mom. I…I fell in love.” Buffy said dreamily.

“Well…that’s nice.” Joyce closed her eyes and sighed.
~ With a vampire. ~ She thought trying to hold the tears in.

“I’m gonna grab a snack and head up to bed.” Buffy murmured.

“Ok. Goodnight sweetie.” Joyce gave Buffy a quick hug as she made her way up to the sanctity of her room.
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“Why?” Anya wondered aloud. ~ God. I love him so much and I'll always love him…before I knew him, I was like a completely different person. Not even a person, really... ...and I had seen what love could do to people, and it was ... hurt and sadness. I didn’t think I could ever hurt this much. He made me feel safe and warm. I get it now. It was a lie. He never really accepted me. I know why people push Love away. ~ Anya thought sobbing.

Suddenly two pairs of hands grabbed her. She screamed and tried to struggle. ~ Damn it. I wash I had my powers back! ~ She thought fiercely kicking out her legs.

Anya heard a inhuman roar and one of the pairs of hands dispersed into dust. She moaned quietly and sank to the ground whimpering. The other pair of hands having been ripped viciously from her as her attacker was thrown into a nearby wall. Shocked Anya looked up into the eyes of another vampire. One she recognised.
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Spike turned the corner and saw Anya, walking with her head down, two vampire’s trailing slowly behind her.

~ Stupid chit. She deserves to be eaten. ~ He watched as the vampire’s grabbed hear and heard her scream.

Spike remembered vividly the thrill of the hunt., the chase, catching your prey. Blood delicious and warm sliding down your throat.
Spike closed his eyes and inhaled. ~ The delicious smell of fear. ~

~ Bloody hell. ~ Buffy’s image popped into his head. Her luminescent green eyes piercing into him. ~ She’s Buffy’s friend. ~

~ Hope you appreciate my migraine Slayer. ~ Spike thought to himself, launching his body at the nearest vamp, ripping it to pieces. He grimaced as the dust settled waiting for the pain to over take him.

~ NO PAIN! ~ Spike thought with glee. As if to test the fact he slammed his fist into the other vamp. Spike felt the impact in his fist and watched fascinated as the stunned vampire flew through the air.
He looked quickly at Anya assessing that she was ok Spike turned, like the predator he was and stalked his prey. He took two steps forward and let his demon out to play.
Spike was on him instantly hitting and smashing the vampire with savage growls of pleasure. ~ I can hit these monsters. ~ He thought gleefully.
The strangled sound of Anya’s crying pulled Spike from his violent haze.
He stood and walked over to her. Spike grasped her by the hands and pulled her to her feet. “Come on, I’ll walk you home.” He said putting his arm around her shoulder and leading her away.

“I can’t go home…Spike…I …I broke up with Xander.” Anya sobbed.
~ Bloody hell. ~ “Come on then, I’ll take you to Buffy’s. She’ll put you up for the night.” Spike said changing direction and pulling the distraught girl in step beside him.
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“Buffy was almost finished her sandwich and glass of chocolate milk when there was a knock at the back door.

She frowned. ~ Who could that be at this time of night? ~ She thought glancing at the clock before going to the door.

“Giles?” Buffy asked baffled. “What are you doing here?”
“Buffy…Xander is at my house. He was rather upset, blathering on about you and Spike…” Giles stopped when he looked into her eyes and saw the anger and stubbornness that made up the fire in his slayer.
“He had no right Giles.” She said angrily. “I wanted to tell you myself.” She let out an angry breath and turned away from her watcher.
“So it’s true then?” Giles asked apprehension in his soft voice.
“I don’t think Xander’s prejudice ramblings have any roots in truth.” Buffy sighed.
“Buffy. Is this some sort of thrall?” Giles asked. ~ I have to know if she’s let him in to her heart. If she has god help us all. ~ “Xander said Spike has bitten you…and that you let him.”
Buffy bit her cheek and cringed. “Giles. It’s not like that. Spike loves me.”
Giles scoffed. “He can not love Buffy.” ~ I don’t know what the hell that monster did to make her trust him. But I do intend to find out. ~
Buffy td and angrily to him and invaded his personal space. “He bloody well does. I have seen it Giles. He can be a good man, Giles. I feel it. But he's never gonna get there if we don't give him the chance.” Buffy said passionately. She turned from her watcher and paced the room.

“Buffy, I want more for you. I can hear it in your voice. And that way lies a future filled with pain. I don't want that for you.” Giles said sincerely.

“You want to know what is making me hurt Giles? I love him. What I feel for him goes beyond love. He and I belong together. What hurts me is that no one will let me make my own choices. When do I deserve to be happy? When do I get what I want?”

Buffy wiped impatiently at her tears. She sighed in frustration. “He tried to…Giles he tried to dust himself cause he thought I could never love him. He was almost gone before I got to tell him. I won’t take any chances I want to be with him. If you can’t accept that we have nothing leftsay say to each other.”
“Well, I hope you're right. You're gambling with a lot of lives.” Giles said rubbing han hands through his tousled hair.
He looked up and caught Buffy’s gaze. She was staring at the still open door, a grin lighting her eyes.
“What happened?” She questioned looking into Spike’s eyes and taking in Anya’s tear stained face.
“Seems Anya broke up with the whelp and she was walking the streets when she was attacked.” Spike shrugged. He led Anya to a chair and helped her sit.
“Spike saved me.” She whispered breathlessly. “They were gonna kill me, and he saved me.” She looked into Bufffy’s eyes.
Buffy looked up at Spike and he shrugged.
“What do you mean he saved you?” Giles asked staring intently at the shaking girl.
“He killed the vampire’s that grabbed me, and he brought me here.” She said here eyes filling with tears again.
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Giles couldn’t comprehend the fact that Buffy was in love with Spike. ~ How could a slayer fall like that? For a vampire? And how the hell could a vampire like *Spike* change? ~ He wondered. He sighed and shut off his car.
“Well? Did you talk to her?” Xander pounced as soon as Giles entered.
“Yes. I talked to her. She is determined to be with him.” Giles shook his head.
“Didn’t you try to change her mind?” Xander asked. He was shaking he was so angry.
“While I was there as a matter of fact Spike showed up.” Giles continued as if Xander r spr spoke a word. “It seems he saved Anya from being attacked from vampires.” Giles said still trying to wrap his head around the fact.
“What? Oh my god! Is she ok?” Xander asked as irrational fear gripped his heart in an icy grip.
“Yes. Thanks to Spike.” Giles said softly. “I need to go to bed. Anya is at Buffy’s. You can reach her tomorrow, I trust you can see yourselves out?” He asked over his shoulder.
Giles didn’t stop on the way to his room to hear Xander or Willow’s answer.
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“I was so scared Buffy.” Anya whispered snuggling further into Buffy’s arms.
“It’s ok now Anya. You have nothing to worry about.” Buffy soothed patting her back comfortingly.
“When I was a demon, I had nothing to fear. Vampire’s! Ha I could kick their asses without even breaking a sweat. But being human? It was really scary.” Anya whispered.
“I know.” Buffy said softly.
“There’s only one think that scares me more.” Anya whimpered tears slipping silently down her cheeks. “What if he never really loved me? What if he was lying? About everything? I know now he could never accept what I was. So how could he really love me?” She sobbed uncontrollably into Buffy’s lap.
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Should this be the end? Please let me know ;) Az