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Well at least he's getting help, although I still think that Buffy would be an ass to wait for him. She should be there as a fr but but I also think that she should distance herself from him. We all need to get rid of the negative influences in our lives. Believe me I speak from experience.

I love this story, more than love it. All of the characters are still so very much themselves despite being taken out of a world with literal demons.
At more than one point I have had tears in my eyes.
I just can't say enough how much I am enjoying this.
I will be waiting with bated breath.

ohhh this chapter hurts my heart, but i love it. and that moment where he puts the baggie under the other things and it doesn't occur to him to get rid of it...god i know that moment. well done. i'm glad spike is getting the help he needs and that buffy is supporting him through it.

ohhhh this was a goooooood chapter! and so soon after the last one! i'm glad that spike didn't sleep with dru and didn't go back to drugs. i'm glad he's taking some time to be ok on his own.

i love this story

*happy sigh*

Sorry, hate it. I was relieved after the first half and then it got worse. It?s painful to read even if I understand what you?re doing. I don?t know if I can stand one more chapter like this.

Hmmmm

He is past fucked up.....and this soooo kills my wanting him with Buffy, she deserves WAY better then Spike and his baggage......he needs help in the most serious ways or all he is going to do is keep hurting those that do love him to the point that Tara, Willow, Xander, and Anya will not want anything more to do with him. With all that Dru has donethemthem, I don\ee tee them wanting him back if he does get back with Dru even for a night. If he goes and has ANY relations with Dru right now.....Buffy should not take him back.....NO matter what she thinks...it is not her fault he is a mental case. She can't save a man that does not want to be saved.......and apparently he is not looking for the right life perserver...cause Buffy isn't the only thing he needs to survive.....and I think that is his major mistake thinking that she might be......because before you can love someone else, you have to love yourself....and Spike does not even like himself let along love any portion of himself......now I will get off my Spike is a nutter soap box and wait for the next chapter.....LOL

Kimber

i'm so glad you updated. i love this story. it totally makes my day when i see an update. i wish things were better, i wish spike had stayed and listened like a minute longer, i wish they could just be happy and gleeful all the time. but i guess it wouldn't be much of a story then would it. great job.

i know i've already reviewed this chapter, but having read the other reviews i just thought i'd step in and say a word in spike's defense. relapse, though painful, is an ineivatable part of the recovery process (and one many people conveniently forget about once you've stopped whatever you're addicted to, so that when you do relapse you feel shitty and alone). if everyone abandons spike because he relapsed rather than trying to understand what led to it...well that's pretty damn shitty. not that i'm saying that buffy should immediately jump back into bed with spike (especially if he sleeps with dru) but she should be there for him as he recovers from his relapse, and not abandon the relationship. now i also think spike should get some professional help, and perhaps some couples counseling in addition (especially to help them deal with the sexual side effects of spike's past). anyway. just wanted to put a word in saying i get what spike's going through (and buffy too) and i don't think the actions of either one should mean the end of their relationship.

I'm glad someone made that point. I've understood everyone's anger, I was pissed off writing it, but I hope this chapter clears some of these issues up. Relapse is almost inevitable for anyone dealing with addiction, and Spike's not that special. Drugs are hard, I got that from experience, sex is harder, I got that from seeing it happen to friends. Spike's on his way, but no one's ever given him the help he needs. Allowing people to rely on you as they try to recover from addiction merely substitutes one thing for another. But, he's just figured that out. About damn time.

At this point Buffy is just letting Spike drag her down with him. He is such a jerk. Whine, Whine, Whine. If my boyfriend said he loved an ex durring sex....... well needless to say I would be gone in a heartbeat. What an Asshole. .................... Sorry, just had to vent there. I think that I am getting to wrapped up in the story line. Great chapter, But I really hope that you update soon. You can't just leave us hanging like that. Please..... there might be cookies in it for you.